I'm sorry, this is probably really boring for everybody, but I need to get some things off my chest. I currently am so isolated that I have no-one to talk to and some of the things i've been trying to ignore lately just wont go away. These are;
I miss my family and friends. My sister is about to turn 16 and I'm going to miss it, all the way over here on the other side of the globe. I haven't spoken to my Da in months and I miss him so much it hurts. I haven't spoken to my brother for even longer because he's 'too busy' and phone calls are 'too expensive'. I just found out my cousin is getting married next week and I didn't even know he was engaged.
I have to work over christmas because I can't afford to take it off, I thought at least it might be ok because I'm accompanying a patient on a week long holiday so at least some of that family christmas cheer might rub off on me but i've just found out that the family don't even want me in the house so i'm going to be spending the holidays essentially in a hotel room all alone. What a bitch, I'm a fucking person with feelings and all, how can they just pass me off like I don't exist?
I've been invited to spend christmas with a friend and her man but I can't even think about affording to take it off.
I miss all my friends and am fucking sick of sleeping in a single bed all alone. I know this will change when I move to Canada but right now I feel like shit. I so badly wish someone would just hand me £1000 so I could take the week off and be with my friends so I'm more relaxed and ready to move to Canada (which I'm majorly stressed about) as it is after this shit arse x-mas is over I get off work on friday night and fly to Canada on Saturday morning.
I can't believe how cold hearted some people can be. But I guess in the end it is my fault for putting myself in this position so far away from my loved ones.
I'm sorry for the rant, I just had to let it out cos my client has gone out and I can finally have some privacy to have a cry.
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I understand missing the fam. I would like to see my grandma for Xmas, though I did just see her. MsQwerty's ideas are good ones! I spent last Xmas break in the UK and there were so many relaxing things to do, especially walking around.




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