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    I'm sorry, this is probably really boring for everybody, but I need to get some things off my chest. I currently am so isolated that I have no-one to talk to and some of the things i've been trying to ignore lately just wont go away. These are;
    I miss my family and friends. My sister is about to turn 16 and I'm going to miss it, all the way over here on the other side of the globe. I haven't spoken to my Da in months and I miss him so much it hurts. I haven't spoken to my brother for even longer because he's 'too busy' and phone calls are 'too expensive'. I just found out my cousin is getting married next week and I didn't even know he was engaged.
    I have to work over christmas because I can't afford to take it off, I thought at least it might be ok because I'm accompanying a patient on a week long holiday so at least some of that family christmas cheer might rub off on me but i've just found out that the family don't even want me in the house so i'm going to be spending the holidays essentially in a hotel room all alone. What a bitch, I'm a fucking person with feelings and all, how can they just pass me off like I don't exist?
    I've been invited to spend christmas with a friend and her man but I can't even think about affording to take it off.
    I miss all my friends and am fucking sick of sleeping in a single bed all alone. I know this will change when I move to Canada but right now I feel like shit. I so badly wish someone would just hand me £1000 so I could take the week off and be with my friends so I'm more relaxed and ready to move to Canada (which I'm majorly stressed about) as it is after this shit arse x-mas is over I get off work on friday night and fly to Canada on Saturday morning.
    I can't believe how cold hearted some people can be. But I guess in the end it is my fault for putting myself in this position so far away from my loved ones.
    I'm sorry for the rant, I just had to let it out cos my client has gone out and I can finally have some privacy to have a cry.


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    They don't even want you in the house? That's so mean! I hope you get back to Canada soon, hon.

    I so hate the holidays-I'm telling my family I'm going away so they don't get the spend the time putting me down. Instead I'm going to rent old movies and veg out all day. This time brings out the worst in people.

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    Thanks honey.

    I used to hate christmas and try and get out of it every year, i mean my family isn't even religious at all, but it really hits home how important it is for me to spend time with them at times like this.

    Oh, and this is my first ever time to Canada.

    XXXS

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    Aww, thats nasty of the patients family!
    I hope you can make the day special somehow. Maybe you will meet up with other Xmas 'orphans' there must be loads of people around who are away from their families; or otherwise maybe you can make the day special for yourself somehow - it doesnt have to cost much. Having said that though, Im a bit boring. I would curl up in bed with a good book, a funny dvd and lots of chocolate and / or have a really long country walk if I was in the UK and call in at a quaint pub somewhere, whatever floats your boat. Im sure youll have contact with your family on the day. It wont be the same obviously, but remember shitty times make interesting stories later. Every Christmas you have with your family after this one will seem so much better than it would have if you hadnt been without them (-:
    btw - you might get a laugh out of these pics (-: (I hope they dont make you more homesick but Im guessing the mankini might make you glad youre not here, lol.)

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    Quote Originally Posted by Scarlett.Oz View Post
    Thanks honey.

    I used to hate christmas and try and get out of it every year, i mean my family isn't even religious at all, but it really hits home how important it is for me to spend time with them at times like this.

    Oh, and this is my first ever time to Canada.

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    D' oh!-I bet Oz=Australia, yes? I understand missing the fam. I would like to see my grandma for Xmas, though I did just see her. MsQwerty's ideas are good ones! I spent last Xmas break in the UK and there were so many relaxing things to do, especially walking around.

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    Hahahaha, thankyou MsQwerty.
    Fred will have his bits on display at his funeral, possibly including melon!!! Bless him.
    God I haven't seen that bunch for so long, last contact was a message from Steely a couple months ago trying to convince me to get a mohawk to look even more like Brody from the Distillers.
    Add to this the ex hubby (Dylan, do you know him?) hates me again, his life must be boring. Oh well, his problem...

    Thanks guys, I wasn't sure anyone would read this with the ominous title.

    XXXS

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    Yeah, I hear the area (Dorset) is quite pretty, and possibly deserted over x-mas day with everyone inside with their families (Oh I know how to wind myself up huh). So I might check out the scenery, or find a pub and hang with the other misfits.
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    Oh MsQ, I recognise that politically correct t-shirt!!!! I'm pretty sure Dylan used to own it, hahaha.
    Last edited by Scarlett.Oz; 12-07-2007 at 03:32 PM. Reason: ETA; 'the politically correct t-shirt

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    Yes I do know him - not very well but I met him 5 or 6 years ago through Steely when I was in Melbourne. Steely I chat to quite a bit still. Do you know my old friend Mick Chicken?
    The pics are from a gig they played on the Gold Coast a couple of weeks ago - it was the funnyest night ive had in a long time!
    And yes its a great shirt, lol!


    Quote Originally Posted by Scarlett.Oz View Post
    Hahahaha, thankyou MsQwerty.
    Fred will have his bits on display at his funeral, possibly including melon!!! Bless him.
    God I haven't seen that bunch for so long, last contact was a message from Steely a couple months ago trying to convince me to get a mohawk to look even more like Brody from the Distillers.
    Add to this the ex hubby (Dylan, do you know him?) hates me again, his life must be boring. Oh well, his problem...

    Thanks guys, I wasn't sure anyone would read this with the ominous title.

    XXXS

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    I know Chicken!!! When Dylan and I broke up Chicken was, um, interested. Nothing more than a bunch of suggestive text messages but Dylan didn't like it, especially after he'd just tried to tell me none of his mates ever wanted to see or speak to me again. (he was in a grump that day). Haven't seen anyone really for about 3 years.
    It's a small world huh.
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    I entirely understand what you're going through, SO, having been through such experiences myself--and I, too, will be without "the relationship" this year. I'm trying to focus on the good aspects of that--of being out of something that had its downsides--and on the blessings that I have. And it sounds to me as if you have a future planned in Canada...you can look forward to the future; new experiences wait for you right around the corner. And maybe that is what this time is for you--a corner is being turned, with brighter things ahead. Here's to hoping for a bright new year.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Scarlett.Oz View Post
    I'm sorry for the rant, I just had to let it out cos my client has gone out and I can finally have some privacy to have a cry.


    XXXS
    The people suck, that’s clear. If you know you have X Mass off, what about doing some volunteer work? I hate X mass, all holidays really, and perhaps the most rewarding X Mass day experience I ever had was working the food line of a homeless shelter X Mass day. Believe me, you wont feel sorry for yourself ever again.* If that was something that appealed to you, you would really need to volunteer now as X Mass is the only day they actually have to turn people away for help. Good luck, chin up and all that crap.

    * and yes, you have every reason and right to feel shitty about the situation.
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    I have to be 'on call' for my client, otherwise i'd jump at the chance to volunteer.

    I am looking forward to the move (although soooo nervous) it's just hard to be so isolated at this time of year. I spoke to my Ma last night which made me feel a little better. These people belong in the 1920's, assholes.

    When I first wrote this post I was having a moment, I feel better now but these 'moments' are coming thicker as the season jingles it's way into christmas day.

    This too shall pass.

    XXXS

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    I am sorry you are sad about the holidays! We are in the same boat!

    I absolutely hate Christmas, mainly since my family behaves about as civil as yours...

    Thats why I got a holiday lined up, I am going alone, for 7 days, to skip Christmas this year.

    Anyway, congratulations on deciding to move to Canada. You have a major change ahead of you. Don't be afraid or worried about that at all... Do you know what city you will be living in? This board has members from all over Canada, every major city, and maybe you would have less anxiety if you kinda know someone where you are going. What will you be doing in Canada?

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    Haha, yes thats the Chicken I know, I doubt hell ever change! Good bloke though despite his womanising

    Quote Originally Posted by Scarlett.Oz View Post
    I know Chicken!!! When Dylan and I broke up Chicken was, um, interested. Nothing more than a bunch of suggestive text messages but Dylan didn't like it, especially after he'd just tried to tell me none of his mates ever wanted to see or speak to me again. (he was in a grump that day). Haven't seen anyone really for about 3 years.
    It's a small world huh.
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    Haha, yeah, I bumped into him and his girlfriend in stkilda while he was still sending me texts and he was a bit freaked out, I didn't know they were still together!! I wasn't interested anyway, just flirting but it was a bit awkward. He's good for a laugh.

    242, It's not my family, it's a patients family, mine are on a different continent which is making me homesick. I have a boy in Vancouver who i'm going to stay with and I've been in contact with a few girls on here about going back to dancing so i'm looking forward to it heaps, be good to get out of england, i've had enough! I'm stressed cos I haven't seen him for years and I'm not the little perky thing he fell in love with all those years ago. I feel like i'm walking into a relationship and it scares the pants off me, commitment always does.

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    let me just say i'm jealous you are moving to vancouver and will be taken care of.

    i wish moving to vancouver again would be that easy for me. it's so beautiful there.

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    I hear so much good stuff about Vancouver, seriously, no-one's ever said anything negative.
    I'm not sure about being 'taken care of' though, it's not like he actually has any money, just lurve.


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    my bf doesn't make enough to support the both of us unless he's working at the mountain (winter) so, when i'm there when he's working the lounge, i have to save my pennies to even everything out.

    you will love van.

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    We used to hang out and hed literally have a different girlfriend in each corner of the night club some nights. There were often tears when he lived up here. Have you heard the song about him?
    I still was getting those texts until I didnt give him my number again after he lost his phone a few months ago - he doesnt give up easilly hes been chasing me since 1986! Expect to recieve them again if you come back to this side of the world! I love him though, hes been a good friend to me!

    Im jealous of you going to Vancouver too! I was meant to stop off there for a few days in 2005 but I spent all of my cash in the UK, so next time... I have never heard anything bad about the place either and pretty much everyone Ive met from Vancouver or Victoria has been great - really nice people, good sense of humour and i love their sarcastic sounding accent, lol!


    Quote Originally Posted by Scarlett.Oz View Post
    Haha, yeah, I bumped into him and his girlfriend in stkilda while he was still sending me texts and he was a bit freaked out, I didn't know they were still together!! I wasn't interested anyway, just flirting but it was a bit awkward. He's good for a laugh.

    242, It's not my family, it's a patients family, mine are on a different continent which is making me homesick. I have a boy in Vancouver who i'm going to stay with and I've been in contact with a few girls on here about going back to dancing so i'm looking forward to it heaps, be good to get out of england, i've had enough! I'm stressed cos I haven't seen him for years and I'm not the little perky thing he fell in love with all those years ago. I feel like i'm walking into a relationship and it scares the pants off me, commitment always does.

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    Yeah I have heard great things about Vancouver! You will love it, no doubt.

    Hang in there about Christmas, and don't feel too bad about being away from your brother and sister, for at least you still have them even if they are far away, or acting stupid about calling to say hi.

    I would pay so much to talk to my brother, but it will never happen. Yours will figure out the lesson there, eventually.

    But thanks to Corgan and Twister and CallMeSky (and her little angel daughter), and all the people who responded to Corgan's thread, I feel better about the holidays than I have in years! No shit, and it's weird, too haha...

    But I like it. And we are still two weeks away from it, it's hard to believe.
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    I've most likely heard the song, which one was it? I really enjoyed the texts because Dylan had this whole 'oh they were my friends first and they don't want to talk to you anymore' thing going on which was bullshit cos I was hanging out with them more than he was before shit when down in my life ('shit' being another one of his 'friends') and 2 of his best mates were the ones advised to leave him in the first place. Sometimes he's fine, sometimes he's delusional, I shouldn't be nasty, I have my delusional moments as well.

    Everyone on here has been great, thankyou. Right now I'm a nervous wreck, no sleep, no eats etc, jumping outta my skin. If someone else was moving like I am I would tell them they were a 'k'nidiot. God I am so unprepared. Fark!!! On the other hand i've made an effort to speak to the woman who was treating me like a smelly dog even though we have never met and we have 'bonded' over our mutual dislike of something although I may have pretended to hate it more than i did, actually it didn't bother me at all but I guess this is the stuff she responds to so xmas may be a little more tolerable, although family is still so far away.
    My sister is turning 16 in 5 days, waaaaa!!!!

    You're so right djoser, this year is racing by! And my brother will, he's just so caught up in managing his own life at the moment he has no time for anyone else. He's a good guy, just a busy one.

    XXXS

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