(First I wanna say I had a package waiting by my door tonight with some delicious cookies, a card, and a little christmas ornament, and to that wonderful sw-er, I hope you know your gift made my best friend run up and go WHY are you CRYING!!...hehe. That was VERY nice of you. And made my day.)
Alright guys. Well, as some of you know and some don't, I haven't been doing awesome lately, mentally. I've been getting super lonely/depressed/having flashbacks and things and there's just alot I haven't really dealt with in my life that I need to deal with, and it has been manifesting itself into an eating disorder that's gotten dangerous.
So for now, I'm hanging up the heels. I can't handle the pressure of it right now on top of this and the pressure of paying all my bills and half my parents bills. I just haven't been able to handle it all. I stuck through with school and finished the semester with straight A's, but it took all I had and I am feeling physically empty and incapable of life right now, which has gotten scary.
So...my best friend's mom and dad are coming to get my stuff Saturday morning and me and Gabby are moving to the outskirts of Corpus Christi for a little while. They live on alot of land in the country and have a little guest house on their property. It's nothing fancy, but it's plenty of room for me and Gabby and right now it feels perfect. She's going to cover my bills for a bit and pay for me to get into therapy and get through some old ghosts and get through the reasons why I can't sleep and maybe get some meds for it, and basically just help me get back to my normal pooka self.
She says they won't be "parenting" me, so to speak, meaning I can still come and go as I please, etc. So any of you I had plans with, this doesn't mean I can't continue with them! It just means I'm getting my ducks back in a row. I'm probably going to move back to San Antonio after next semester if I'm feeling healthy again, so it's just a for now thing. Just wanted to update you guys. If I'm offline for a few days that's why, but I'll have internet back up in a few days, I got a wireless card on their account, I just need to fix my computer and stuff.



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I do hope I can show them how grateful I am by respecting them and taking advantage of the oppurtunity they are giving me to better myself and get healthy so they dont think Im just enjoying the free ride. Hopefully by taking very good care of their guest house and keeping her mom company and helping with their animals they will understand how much it means to me that they are doing this for me.





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