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    I dont want to get out of bed. Like....ever. I feel like crap and just the thought of going to the mailbox throws me into a panic attack...and while I'm on TWO anti anxiety drugs...they dont seem to be having any affect.

    Somehow I manage to pull it together at work and play smartass party girl. But the second Im out...I crash again.

    I am sure my husband is getting annoyed with me. All day every day I cat bring myself to do anything. With him or without him. So I havent cleaned the house at all..I dont want to cook dinner...I dont want to even go to a movie. I literally lie in bed all the time. The only reason I pull it together at work is because I HAVE to. I need to make money to pull myself out of the hole I'm in.

    Tell me I"m not alone. That I'm not the only one who gets like this. Tell me it will pass and I'll feel normal again...

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    I wish I could give you advice...

    I CAN tell you that you're not alone. I'm going through these exact feelings right now. Pulling it together for work and falling apart when it comes to everything else. I don't know if it'll pass, but I know I have seen people pull themselves out of the mud before, so I have confidence that you will be able to pick yourself up soon.

    Love and hugs to my wonderful Cam. I hope you start feeling better shortly.

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    It's okay. I've had my moments like this. I've just recently went through it. I cried all l ast week at work. Like, I have a regular customer, and I BAWLED my eyes out to him!! Right in front of everyone! WTF? Maybe it's a surge in hormones? Have you noticed any physical changes in you? Any more acne than normal? Any change in your discharge? Do you notice anything differently? That's what my problem was. My hormones went crazy, and there was nothing I could do but ride it out and wait.
    You'll be okay.

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    You aren't the only one. It's just a phase. It will pass. There are some times that I don't even want to cook. I've gone a few days without eating before. I've gone a few days without sleeping as well. Someone, or something will remind you why life is fun soon and you will be back to normal.

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    You are not alone. I will creep out to the mailbox though.

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    Thanks guys. No ..no physical differances except that I dont feel well right now. Which is probably because of work...smoke, fog machine,etc...I have a sore throat and feel just generally achy.

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    You just described me Cam. I got through random periods like that on occasion, more often in the winter. It DOES go away though.

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    AW! You'll be okay. A lot of usknow how you feel, and you'll pass through it fine.

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    I opened this thread out of curiosity, already trying to think of something comforting to say. But as I was reading the first post, it hit me--this is me. I guess I haven't wanted to say it out loud or something. Yesterday I was on the computer. I ate. I watched TV. I read. I couldn't make myself get up or do anything that I knew I had to do. The Hubby had a big stressful day and I didn't reach out or make any effort to help him. I woke up exhausted and went to bed exhausted. And I've been in bed for 3 hours thinking about everything I need to do today and just. not. caring.

    Nope nothing comforting there. Blech.


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    ^^ well..it's comforting to know I'm not alone. At least you have cheeseballs to drown your sorrows in!

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    ^^And hey, at least we all have SW!

    Here's a third on the "haven't gotten out of bed" train. I called into work, have ignored my paper and my looming final on the horizon and instead have elected to brood and surf the internet.

    I'm such a responsible human being...

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    I have been feeling the same way you are feeling Cameron.

    I went outdoors to do 3 things:

    1. Drop off/pick up the little one at school
    2. Buy groceries
    3. Go to work

    That is it. I was either in bed or on the computer besides that. I did not want to go out, as a matter of fact staying indoors for days/weeks at a time didn't bother me and made me feel better. My ex kept begging me to get help and I did not. I kept putting it off. My depression/anxiety just kept keeping me down and ultimately it cost me my marriage. That is not something that is easy to live with.

    So now I deal with depression that has bothered me for years, and the one person I have loved for years is no longer in my corner because he was longer happy, and felt that I had become a different person.

    Everyday for me is hard- from the holidays to dealing with the memories to our daughter asking why her dad and I are not together anymore. What am I supposed to say to that?

    All I can do is take it one day at a time.
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    Shake your ass and preserve your heritage.
    Bang those fucking drums.
    Do it for the present and future generations.
    Have fun and stick it to the man at the same time.
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    You're so not alone, Cameron, women are more prone to depression than men. I've been there, and am currently struggling to get out of the battle between my body and mind. I feel better when I think of hotties like you kicking ass and taking names! *drools* Feel better soon, Sugar.

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    I've had major depression since I was about 13. On and off, and the episodes of depression get longer and worse the older I get. If I'm not on medication, I barely get any relief at all.

    If it gets bad enough Cameron don't be afraid to ask for help. Sometimes it doesn't pass.

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    Cameron - I know how you feel. I used to feel like that, although in the past few months I've improved very much (I started taking Wellbutrin several months ago, and it's the best one I've tried).

    How long have you felt like this? I don't know how you feel about anti-depressants, but if you if you've felt this way for a while you could consider meds or maybe a little counseling. Otherwise, is there something in your life thats bothering you, that you'd like to change? I've found that personal reflection and meditation can do wonders - it just helps you sort yourself out and do what you need to do to feel better. It's hard to feel better until you figure out what the problem is and deal with it. I know with depression, it can be really difficult to figure out why you feel so shitty, but usually there is something behind it, whether it's somethin in your life, a medicine, hormones, etc.

    I'm sure you'll feel better soon - you seem like a very strong, level-headed woman.

    ETA: Forgot to add: excercise helps A LOT! Clears your mind, gets some endorphins going.

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    I'm battling it too, both anxiety & depression w/o meds. Meditating has been working for me so far. And spending quality time with my family. I've been feeling like this since last month too.

    Don't stay alone. Stay around your close friends & family. I hope you get better soon!

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    Wow PleasureVictim...thats a really jarring story. I hope I dont get that bad.

    My husband, god bless him, never seems to have an issue with depression. He has good days and bad days like normal people....but he never goes through these blue periods like I do. So as much as he tries to be supportive and understanding...I'm sure a part of him wants to scream at me to just stop being lazy and get the hell up already. Hell...I say that to myself on a daily basis, so I can hardly blame him.

    But I have to say, this thread did inspire me to get up and do just a little. I cleaned out the dishwasher, put all the dirty dishes from the sink in the dishwasher, and cleaned out the bird cage. And that last one is a feat unto itself since my birds, esp the conures, like to play a game I believe is called "shred the newspaper, tear apart all our toys, throw our food around and make as much of a mess as possible". Well..I dont know if thats the formal name, but that seems to be the primary objective. Apparently they believe mommy lives to clean up after them!

    I also made a bit of pasta with spinach for myself and the birds for lunch. I dont know how much I"ll eat, but I figured I'd try. The birds are happily re-messing up their cage with theirs.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Vyanka View Post
    Don't stay alone. Stay around your close friends & family. I hope you get better soon!

    I dont really have a loto f close friends here anymore. Most of the ones I've made over the years have moved away..South FL isnt a place a lot of people stay very long it seems.

    I know the primary cause. It's money. My husband noticed long ago that I sink low when my income declines and picks up when I start making money again. I cant help it though. I get so stressed when I am not making money....I freak out and start thinking of things like..what if we lose the house?

    And for those who asked...it isnt that I am opposed to anti-depressants. I just dont have a lot of hope that they would work on me. I'm on Cymbalta and Klonopin right now for anxiety...I take the Cymbalta every day since that has to build up in your system to work..its been over a month and I feel nothing. The klonopin I am supposed to take as needed for instant relief. I dont really bother much anymore. It doesnt seem to have any effect on me. Most drugs dont so why bother anymore?

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    Ive been lke this too but only on occassion my bf gets mad at me because he says im always on the computer......meh.Im off my meds though so maybe thats the reason, but we all go through this .

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    It's really important to continue taking your meds as prescribed, even if you feel they aren't working.

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    Quote Originally Posted by SarahSynn View Post
    It's really important to continue taking your meds as prescribed, even if you feel they aren't working.
    I dont know if this was to me or not,but...
    ..the klonopin was on an as needed basis....so if it isnt working I dont see the point in adding yet another potentially addictive drug into my system

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    Oh, Cam, your not alone. I can't even pull myself up to go to work. I haven't worked in almost 6 months.

    Lately, I've discovered that making a to do list every day is helpful. I have a silly list I print out every day, and cross things off as I go. At the end of the night, it's nice to see I crossed off most or all of my things to do. They are every day things normal people wouildn't think twice about. My list looks like this:
    1. Get out of bed, get dressed.
    2. Eat breakfast
    3. Load Dishwasher
    4. Scoop litterbox
    5. Go outside for 15 minutes
    6. Take a bath ( yes, it's pretty silly to need to put take a bath on a to do list, but I was seriously slacking on that, and only showering 2 or 3 times a week.

    I have to write this list to get anything done, and although I don't do it all on most days, more stuff gets done than before. And it really sucks to force myself to do things when I would rather lay in bed, but II feel a lot better after I have acomplished these things. I feel very very guilty when I don't do stuff, and that only atributes to the sad feelings.

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    I'm fighting to keep from deleting my post above. I hate when I sound like I'm feeling sorry for myself, especially because I know I have NO good reason to. I'm not in debt even though I haven't worked in a month, I'm in a great relationship with my husband and family, there is NO REASON for me to feel this blue. Which makes me feel worse, ironically. I just went to HEB (yay accomplished something!) and I felt like crying and hiding whenever someone looked at me. Honestly I think I need to exercise and be in the sun more, and I'm very much like you Cam--when I'm not making money, I'm MUCH more prone to these "down" moods. So those are things I can work on. Once I feel like getting up again.


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    That sucks, Cameron et al. I know the feeling. For me, I just have to keep going in a rountine. Whether I want to leave the house or not...because if I stay home it just gets worse and worse until I can't leave. So it's not much help, I know...when you're at a low, it's hard to see the light. But that's what works for me: mind-numbing routine. And then it gets better.

    Action is the enemy of thought! If I keep moving, the dark feelings have less of a hold...that's what I find, anyway. Best of luck to you!

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    ^^^ that's so true!! When I"m having a very hard time, I try to work more, or get out of the house as much as possible so I don't surround myself with my negativity, or I have friends over to attach fun times with my house, so it's not the only place I'm alone. Even if it's just one or two, it helps associate happiness with my place of sadness so it's not always there.
    Also, what helped me was working out at home. The routine of exercising when I was alone at night, made it easier, because when I was done, and showered, I was too tired to care about being alone. And itmade me feel like I did something productive.

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