I want to, no, I NEEd to quit smoking!
I smoke 3+ packs a day.
My lungs actually feel heavy and hurt, I have to sit straight up, I can't slouch because my lungs hurt.
I can't walk up the steps to my house without getting winded.
I have to stop and rest if I walk across campus at school. I get so winded I can't speak.
I have to smoke the moment I roll out of bed. 1 isn't enough. I smoke half the pack within the first hour of waking up.
I have started to hate smoking more and more lately.
Tonight I saw a movie and after the movie as I stood and waited for my boyfriend to come out of the rest room, I realized I was in the smokers circle.About 10 of us, all standing outside the bathroom lighting up. I thought it was disgusting. I was embarassed to be near them. I thought they all looked ridiculous with those sticks hanging from their lips. So I walked to a far corner and smoked alone.
I tried the stop smokign drug, Chantix, and it worked so well, but gave such horrible side effects I had to stop it. I don't have the money for any other drugs to try.
I want to quit. I am ready.
So....Jan 1 is my quit date. There is a reason for this. I am having a Christmas party, and I don't want to quit before that, as I know it would be to hard and I woudl cave in at a party with drinking.
So Jan 1st.
I'm gonna go cold turkey, somehow. I've never had willpower a day in my life....I'm scared.....But I gotta find a way, somehow. I am disgusted by myself, finally. I am ready.
Any tips, suggestions, advice....all appriciated.
How do you have the will power to just say no? To not give in?
Best way to cope with cravings?
Would it be stupid to try and sleep off the first 2 days or so? Would that help?


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