
Originally Posted by
CherryBomb954
I have suffered from GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) since I was 17. Due to a lack of health insurance the last 2 years, I have not been able to go to therapy, I have been buying pills from dealers, and I HATE it. I HATE supporting them, I HATE paying for one pill what I pay for a whole bottle with insurance. But at the same time, it's either that or suffer from panic attacks that are well, not fun ( My husband's insurance kicks in next month and I can't wait!) Also, my alcohol intake has increased significantly. Sometimes if I wake up feeling anxious and have no meds, alcohol is an easy fix.
I had my little pill bottle out the other day in the bathroom (I am very discreet, I don't just sit there and pop valium in front of everyone, usually I go in a stall but they were all full) ) and a girl just happened to walk in and see me. Coincidentally she's a sober-all-the time girl. So she totally attacks me, says I am not supposed to have a pill bottle, blah blah blah. I told her that I am not using them to get fucked up, that I have a medical condition (really none of her business what I am doing but I had to defend myself) She just continued to attack me, say that yeah right I am probaly selling them, and if I am not, why do I need medication anyway, if I need medication to be there I should get another job...etc. I told her stripping did not give me GAD. I have had it for damn near 12 years, and if you have never suffered from it then you don't understand and you don't have a right to sit and judge and attack me.
Anyways, Hearts, I am not saying that your thread is an attack at all, it was actually said in a very polite way. I know you are really targeting the hard core addicts, and I am a little different but at the same time I understand how addiction happens. I have watched family members and friends suffer from it. The point of my little story really is that if you have never been there, it's hard to understand. There are sooo many reasons people become addicts. You will never have an answer to your question, unfortunately.
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