Oh, as far as work goes I felt like it brought me down a lot. I first started taking 75 mg in 2003 after taking nothing for two years. I was having anxiety attacks and wanted to die because I hated having them so badly. I don't think there is anything worse than the feeling of a panic attack, any sort of physical pain is no comparison and I had 7 surgeries for endo. At first it made me so drowsy and loopy I could barely function normally but I got pretty use to it after a couple of weeks. I noticed the crowds at the club didn't bother me as much and I had no stage fright at all. I wasn't having attacks therefore I wasn't as depressed. I also felt like I was able to let stuff roll off my back more easily that usually bothered me.
I quit dancing when I started taking 150mg. My dosage was increased for depression after my ex-husband and I split early last year. I was still was having a hard time getting a lot done because it brought me down as far as relaxing me a lot. I had mono twice this year and that didn't help. I started Adderal last month and I feel it helps my energy immensely plus it seems to add to the anti-depressant component of the Effexor.
My parents started me on meds when I was 12 for the first time, Prozac was the first one. It had nothing to do with sex though as I was not sexually active at that time but it may have had something to do with my going through puberty and my parents not understanding it/me.
I have heard Effexor alone can effect the sex drive. When I was on the pill and Effexor together I forgot I owned a vagina. I am obviously still on the Effexor but I have been off the pill for over a year now and noticed my sex drive increase within a couple of months of being off of it. My sex drive is still pretty high and gets noticeably higher for me around ovulation time. Of course it probably helps that I am approaching 30 too.
i take celepram (aka cipramil, celexa) for my generalized anxiety disorder/hypochondria/panic disorder. i take ativan as a spot treatment when i have a panic/anxiety attack, but i can't work on it, because it makes me too spaced out. i could never dance on stage on an ativan high. i have taken effexor (for depression) and paxil (for anxiety) in the past.





In the rare event I actually take an Ativan, there's no chance in hell I could work either. I did it *once* because I didn't realize I was on another planet and I never want to repeat that day!
I'd rather just be calm and quiet at home, which is where I always end up if I have a panic attack. Does it depend on where you are (home, running errands, etc.) as to how much you take Darcy?
i only ever take ativan at home. seriously, it sends me loopy. i turn into a fucking space cadet when i take it. like it definitely stops the panic attack completely, but i get really fucking high. depending on how bad the attack is, i either take half or a full pill.
man oh man I think that would make doing adult entertainment, especially porn really difficult! How in the world do you handle being so vulnerable with all the extra stress and paranoid feeling your condition creates ? Do the meds really work that well? It seems to me that porn would be one of the worst type of employment for a schizophrenic. But then again maybe I just don't know enough about porn or people who are schizophrenic : /





Darcy, I can take any other benzo and not have any effects, positive or negative. Not even Haldol really does anything, but give me my 4-5mg of Ativan and all is right in the world. I don't think I could have a bitchy thought if I tried. I am SO relaxed and it feels like it sweeps over me in a wave until my anxiety is totally gone. Ahhhhh.
yeah i get that too. the only other benzo i've taken is xanax, and that doesn't seem to react well with me, because a quarter of a pill knocks me out for 12 hours and i wake up feeling like fucking crap. but i don't get any kind of hangover from ativan, and it takes the anxiety away and makes me laughy and happy and calm. i can't do anything but sit on my ass and feel good, but god, i love my ativan.





I'm not vulnerable or anything like that on a porn set. It's controlled chaos. I also know when I need to just keep my ass in bed and not leave the house if I'm having a really hard time. Shit, on most porn sets I'm the normal/calm girl.
I can technically do all kinds of jobs, but I can also technically live on disability like I did for a while. I choose to work. It actually helps me because I'm not isolated and stuck in a group home or some other form of 'day treatment'. Yeah, I hear and see things, and sometimes they scare the shit out of me, but I am 100% committed to my treatment, meds, and therapy. That's why I'm able to work. If I don't have meds it's a totally different story.
I'm amszed ativan has that strong an effect on so many of you...I tried it the other night(not sure the mgs) and felt nada





Ativan kicks my ass. I'm probably totally pleasant to be around, but I am HIGH. I hate the feeling and I never got another refill, though it did really help my icky belly/panic/hyperventilating issues.
Though I am likely to get high from some non-drowsy cold meds as well, so I'm just a lightweight.
I took adderal once and it had the same effect as ecstasy on me.![]()
I pop an SSRI after I roll to avoid depression
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I take effexor xr 150mg but it's not effective enough on its own and really fucks with my sex drive so I take welbutrin to suppliment it. Xanax doesn't work for me, but you know what does? benedryl. It makes me JUST calm enough and still be able to function.
My friend says the same thing. She is always asking me for my Aderrol. Shit isn't that easy to get, and I need my script. Its easier to get E!
I am thinking of getting on Wellbutrin. So sick of these depressive episodes. But I was also told I have mild mania as well, so I am concerned. Not too concerned though, as its the only time I'm happy, and get things done. I don't go off blowing my life savings or thinking I'm invinsible. Just happy and energetic.
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