I've been reading a few threads on depression lateley and I'm finding myself in the same boat. I mean I've been depressed before but never like this.
I'm feeling like I'm not going to live very long and have like zero hope for the future.
I've just recently moved back in with my parents in the middle of nowhere, so I know that might be part of it, but I used to be able to see past the current and at least dream of a future. I catch myself believing I won't even be around very long to plan for anything. I've never felt this hopeless before.
I've considered even pills but don't have insurance so that'll have to wait.
I start a new job in about a week so I'm sure that'll help, what the fuck is going on.
Has anyone ever felt like they weren't going to live very long because of depression? I keep marvelling at people who live to see their fortieth birthday. I don't know why I feel like something is going to happen, not by my own doing.
It was honestly easier to be homeless...



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