Hey Guys,
I feel like I have to get a "real" job and put my passion on hold. I have resisted doing this because when i see creative people put there creative career on hold, i don't see the great majority of them get back to it. I thought that by doing this and giving my self all the luxury advantages i'd get to my goal quicker. But at this point that spark that is me is being dowsed because of how burnt out i am. I literally break down and have anxiety before having to go to work at this point...i wish for the days when i could go on autopilot and be my work persona and make bank and not give a fuck about what "extra" girls or any other girls were doing. My mantra had always been just focus on me. But I literally feellike i want to lock myself in my apartment and stay here until people notice i'm missing. I am not even able to make the tip out some nights. The thought of downsizing my life to within a nub of itself is depressing. That i cannot just suck it up and do it well anymoreis depressing. Then i tell myself I have too much to be thankful for and i'm an ass for feeling so depressed. I have an affordable place to live, a family that loves me (they don't know i dance, tho), great friends and i'm not going to have to quit and work at walmart...i do have education...it just feels like i followed the do what you love and the rest will follow formula but it isn't following and i've been at my other thing for 17years. I just pray that i can regroup and get back to it ina timely way. i have ideas formy own project but to build that will take time...
All i can say is if there are any newbies out there: go into this with a plan and learn how to save first and learn how to invest in some way even if it's roth ira's and sep something!



-Henry Ford
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