Do you sometimes just wish that someone would just put their arms around you and tell you everything is gona be ok?
I know I am such a mardy bitch right now, but I just want someone to make things better because I am not really coping by myself.
I went to the doctors the other day because I had been sent home from work as my bosses decided I needed time to get myself together. I suffer from depression and don't want to start feeling really bad again, so anyway the doctor agreed with me that the way I am feeling right now is reactive to everything thats happening to me. ( My friend died just over a week ago, is her funeral on Tuesday, might be getting evicted, struggling with uni work.) He actually said that instead of resorting to tablets straight away I should come home get bf to wrap his arms around me and make me feel safe.
Well that is good in theory, but when I get sad he gets sad and withdraws. So so far no hugs.
I just feel so sad so I called my dad and basically we ended up arguing because he reckons that if bf can't help me out with eviction then I should kick him out cos what is the point of him being here.
I am kinda hurt that he isn't trying a little harder to keep a roof over our head and that he isn't very supportive right now. I do wish that even if he can't help with money that he would at least make me feel like we are in this together.
So anyway now I am really confused because we have a good relationship, but now I am considering that I might be better off by myself even though I know I will be devastated if he went back to his mums.
Like I said ever wish someone would just put their arms around you and tell you everything will be okay?





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