So last week I dragged myself into a club and auditioned. I was scared shitless, but it was kinda fun at the same time. I got the job, and am scheduled for 5 shifts in 8 days, which Im thrilled about because I need the money. I live in Sacramento, and was hired at Embers..for those of you who have had the priviledge of setting foot in this establishment, you know very well that it is not the most sophisticated place to work...but hey, it took me over a year to work up the nerve to audition ANYWHERE, so Im just happy to get started.
I know that I have the looks and personality to work at other places...nice places. And since there is probably no money here, I fully intend to audition elsewhere once I get a few shifts in for experience. I dont want anyone to know that Im stripping, but I figured that a few weeks in this place wouldnt expose me. The problem is, when I told my boyfriend, he told me that many of his male colleagues that belong to a local charity org go in there alot. This scares me...I would die if any of them saw me. Since I need the money and already have the shifts, I decided that I would work for one week here and audition somewhere out of town on Monday or Tuesday (today is Saturday). Im going in for my first shift in a few hours, but rather than being excited Im nervous of being exposed..I think I should just go in, and if i see anyone i know i can hide in the back, but i dont want to have anxiety about this all day. Has anyone dealt with this?? I know that all it takes is one person to see me, or my car in the parking lot, to potentially carry the "stigma" that is associated with this business (which personally I have no problem with, I find it liberating)...but since my "real job" as a personal trainer involves self marketing and word of mouth, Im afraid this could come back and bite me in the ass...![]()



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It sucks too, because now Im at City Limits and really want to change clubs, and the Body Shop is where I would go.

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