Not even if it's the 25th and I don't have my rent yet for the month, or I owe thousands, or I'm planning a move to a foreign country next month.
In the past when I've forced myself, I've had so many close calls on losing my $$.
This time I fucking lost the $50 it took me 5 hours to accrue, and it was only 10:30. This is mortifying to admit on this board. I have NEVER had this problem of no money in my entire stripping history, even when it was dead and no one was making any....NEVER THIS BAD. It is like this all over Albuquerque, I know from speaking with top girls that work the circuit here.
I just cannot get it together mentally and become so clumsy and forgetful on the first day. I would have lost it if it were $600. I went home and cried for the first time in months. Everything has been wrong wrong WRONG lately, every single thing, but this pushed me over the edge considering how hard I had to work for this measly 50 bucks.
I feel brave telling this story, but wanted to share to lend support to others who might beat themselves up over not wanting to work the first day, yet feel lazy and like a bad person if they don't. I won't anymore!!!! It is dangerous!!!!


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It's so nice to hear support about how awful the $$ has been lately. I just wish there were some nearby town so I could do the whole "try a different club" thing....but that's what I got myself into when I decided to move out here I guess!

I just started bleeding and I have to go in today for a customer. I'm bummed. I guess it's good that I have an appointment like that scheduled to get me in. Otherwise I'd bum around all day. I just hate the tampon paranoia when I'm bleeding so heavy. I really need to try out the diva cup.



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