Well, I've been an hiatus since before Christmas, and it's time to get my ass back in gear. Last fall was hard for me. I was working a lot, and the contact and mind-games were really killing me. I felt like I was never home, or if I was, I was too exhausted to do anything but lie in bed and feel sorry for myself. I want this time to be different, so I'm making some rules for myself.
No more late nights. It just doesn't work for my body's calendar. I wake up in the afternoon feeling groggy and can't get anything done, just sit around until it's time to go to work. Feel like I have no life at all except for dancing. This time I'm going to work the swing shifts, have time to take care of my life in the mornings before I go and hang out with my boyfriend when I get home at night.
Take better care of myself. Last fall I was barely getting to the gym two times a week. Not only did my weight go up and my body conditioning go down, but I lost a lot of energy. I also stopped tanning, doing my hair and nails, and other little maintainence things like that. I seriously didn't care at all...and it showed. But I know I feel better about myself if I am looking my best. Knowing I look good makes me feel confident and in-charge and want to hustle, vs. going up to guys convinced that they won't want a dance and being right half the time.
Look after my sanity. I stopped doing any yoga or meditation, and these are the things that keep my head together while I'm dancing, and help me deal with anger and frustration and confusion and the other negatives that can come up during the shift.
Stop smoking. This one is going to be hard. I ONLY smoke at work, but when I'm there I smoke like a chimney. Sometimes I'd rather hustle a guy for a cigarette than a dance.
Work smart, not hard. For two years I danced 4-5 days a week. I so admire the Superstippers out there who can keep up this pace, but it is not for me, at least not right now. Two or three shifts a week is all I can do and keep my sanity. I think if I hustle hard on those nights, I can make as much as I did working more nights but only kinda hustling because I was tired and figured I could make it up the next night.
Bascially, I don't want to burn out again. I need to find a way to make dancing sustainable, or I'm afraid I'll reach a point where I just can't do it at all.
There are others. I'll think of them.
Anyway, here's to my new start!![]()



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