Okay - situation: My mom got me a car for graduation. She just signed for it and used her credit. I paid the down payment, paid the payments, etc. When I went to college she said she'd take care of the payments for a while so I wouldn't have to worry about it. Well after a while she stopped paying the payments and didn't tell me and I ended up almost having it reposessed. With some help I managed to get out of that scrape. Well - then she ended up filing for bankruptcy and included my car in it.THe payments for the bankruptcy come out of hers and my stepfathers paycheck. The portion of it that is from my car is about $100 a month. Though my car payment itself was $345. So she told me I was in charge of my payments now and that I was required to still pay her the $350 even though thats not what its actually costing her per month.
Well I agreed to pay it anyway, but told her that I would pay her $150 a week for car/insurance/and phone because thats what she wanted. But that I was flat broke from a recent school emergency and wouldn't be able to start paying her for about two weeks. (when I got paid)
She called yesterday and said I'd better have $300 for her tonight or she was taking my car and keeping it. She's dead serious and said that if I dont' let her in the gate where I live she will call the cops. I haven't called her back yet because I don't know what to say. I don't have $300. And she knows that.
I really just want to give her back the fucking car and tell her to have a nice life. I've done nothing but try and get better and recover from all the fucked up things in my life and be a normal human being that is happy and has a normal amount of stress instead of constantly freaking out about everything and having my mom call me all the time screaming at me.
BUT - then I have no car, no source of public transportation because I live out in the middle of nowhere and a cab ride to work if I could even find one to come out here would be 120 miles a days worth of pay for a cab five days a week and I'd never be able to go anywhere else.
I'm feeling trapped in a corner and have no idea what to do.She refuses to understand that I don't have the money and that I will give it to her when I do.
She wants me to start dancing again and that would be REALLY bad for me right now. I can not handle it and will not try to sabotage the work I've been doing on becoming mentally healthy again. Besides the people letting me live in their guest house (childhood friend's parents.) Are helping me get better and will not accept me stripping right now because it wouldn't help me get better and thats why they are helping me. I told her this and she says "You can move back in with me and dance a few nights a week and pay me $300 a week!".....Uh?
She's become a toxic person in my life in the way that she has slipped into alcoholism and calls me drunk every night telling me basically she hates me and everything wrong in her life is my fault and her marriage falling apart is my fault and I don't care about her etc.....



She refuses to understand that I don't have the money and that I will give it to her when I do.
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It's just another manic mondayyyyy...wish it were sunday.....cuz that's my fun day..... an I don't have to run day, it's just another manic monday....

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