Hi all,
I'm feeling so sad and degraded right now. For the second time my bf, has put his hands on me. Straight up smacking me, pressing my face in the mattress, tossed me off the bed, proceeded to hit me and twist my neck and rubbing my face in the carpet. Then he went off the deep end insulting me, saying horrible, horrible things to me. He said he didn't mean them he was just saying them to make me want to break up with him. Mind you he said this while still saying these horrible things. We had just went to a bar and he got me a hot dog. He told me that's all I was worth was a fucking hot dog meal.
We had an arguement but it was not that big of a deal. He was upset because he had concocted some things in his head and decided to beat me because or these thoughts.
He did it before and said he wouldn't do it again and here it is happening. Again. The hell am I supposed to do, it's easy for people to tell me to leave him but I'm making up excuses for him. I still love him, I want to give him a chance to correct this. However, am I putting my self out there setting myself up to be verbally and physically abused?
I don't want to go to my mom or sister about it because I don't want them thinking badly of him, you know? I'm just so confused right now.
He's 34 years old, me 21.....I HATE being young and dumb sometimes...![]()
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