I don't know if this would be better for Hustle Hut but I'll try here. I'm never scheduled for Friday's and if I go in I'm considered a "walk in." Well I was really good in January and showed up every single Friday but this month I think I only went in once. I get so close. I get dressed and fix my make-up so I can just get on the floor when I get there. It gets closer and closer till I have to leave the house and I feel like I have cement in my shoes. I don't feel anxious more like stuck and lazy. I would rather sit here and play on the computer eat and watch TV. It would be better for me to make the extra money and plus I don't want to hear my SO in my ear about how lazy I am. My SO always picks on me when I don't go to work. He doesn't ask me for money or anything but gripes how if he was in my shoes he would work everyday and blah blah blah. Basically just making me feel like shit for doing nothing and sitting at home. I just dread working all weekend I suppose. I guess I do feel anxious when I think about working Friday Saturday and Sunday. It seems easier when it's Saturday and Sunday. SO long story short I am going to make a commitment to myself and anyone who cares to stick it to me here (for my own sake) I will work every Friday in March and I can reward myself by indulging at Sephora or something.



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