First of all, HUGE HUGS.
Second, and maybe more important, It sounds like you are trying to blame yourself when you say things like this: "I have done everything right. I'm eating so well, and staying as stressfree as possible. I've elliminated anything even possibly harmful!!! " You probably know this intellectually (though it's difficult to know it emotionally, esp. right now), but miscarriages this early - and really, miscarriages in general,
do not happen because of something the mother did or didn't do. These are most likely due to problems with the embryo itself forming, really, the vast majority of times.
I heard it put very poignantly once - that because the embryo just would not have survived, but the mother would not have been able to bring herself to abort, "Her body makes the choice that her heart could not."
Third, and again, I think you know this, many women go through more miscarriages than that before carrying to term (and often carrying multiple pregnancies to term). That might not make it any less painful, particularly not now, but there may be some solace in knowing you are far from alone, and you have so much more time and so many more chances to come.
And ending on a note of hope - more stuff you already most likely know: Women are MORE fertile after a lost pregnancy. So if you're ready to try again, your chances are even better! But do take the time to grieve. We're all here for you. PM me anytime.

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