Apologize in advance, but this is going to be a rant.
I am going fucking CRAZY with the state of my life right now! its so hard for me to make money in PDX because of my age(for another three months, LMAO) and i have NO other job options. I'm tired of hearing "well maybe you should get another job". I havent even been able ot get an interview for a fucking minimum wage cashier position in months. The job market here SUCKS.
I love dancing, i'm happy DOING it, but i've been happy to make above minimum wage, because of being a minor in portland. And I'm fighting just to pay expenses.
So now my drs office billed some stuff to insurance improperly, and they arent covering all of it like they would if it HAD been sent in properly...
And the student loans are being asses too... Basiclaly i'm flat broke, even though i'm working my ass off. Had been trying to get a car, which WOULD help me make more money, since i KNOW i've lost a fair amount of modeling gigs due to lack of transportation... COuldnt get financed because the student loans fuck up my debt to income ratio.
I'd have thought i'd have gotten used to the fear and depression by now. BUt i'm not. Its choking me. I'm 20, and i have NO hope in a viable future, because of my health issues, and todays economy.
Once again, my mom takes htis opportunity to harass me more. I seriously have spent five hours hysterical, trying to get the woman to let off of me. It almost makes me wish i lived closer to her, just so i COULD smack her. Judgemental bitch.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! !!!!




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