So after being ungraciously, rudely told no by the bunch of pathetic dickless snaggletooth greasy disgusting losers that were in my club last night, I'd had it. I checked in around 8:30 and by 11:30 still had not sold a dance. I walked up to a guy that looked halfway decent and once again, a rude turndown and a nasty look from him. I couldn't take it anymore at that point. I bent down and said "You know what, you are lucky I am even available to be out here asking you. I usually don't leave the VIP all night!!!" .....and stormed off. The guy had this shocked look on his face. I know it was rude, but I snapped! I went and sat with an aquaintance that comes in sometimes, and all of a sudden I felt a huge panic attack come on. I started shaking and crying. I went into full panic mode. He felt bad for me and actually went as fas as to find a xanax for me to take. Once it kicked in I was much better, but I hate the fact that I cried at work and had an anxiety attack.
I feel like my shifts are this crazy bipolar rollercoater of highs and lows. I am either in the VIP all night or I can't sell a single dance or even get a dollar on stage, and people are treating me like shit. I am thankful for my good nights, but what sucks is that the bad nights I have are so bad, it kinda overshadows them. When my nights are good, they are really good. Like the "oh my god I can't believe I made that much!" nights. When they are bad, they are really bad, and there is never an in between. I never have one of those just decent nights anymore.
It's driving me crazy. I mean Thursday night I had guys competing with stage tips to be the first one to take me to VIP! Then when I was in VIP, guys were actually coming in looking for me to see if I was done. The second I was done with one, I had another waiting in the wings.
I just don't understand how I can go from that, to last night. No stage tips, no dances (until the last minute anyway). The only reason I took any money home is because there was a bachelor party that gave me a few dances right before closing and they hooked me up.
The DJ even let me skip out on my tipout last night! He's a total sweetheart. He knew I had a bad night and just told me to "take care of him next time"
So now here I am debating on whether to go in tonight. I really need to work and I need money. It's just kinda discouraging cause it's a total 50/50 shot for me. I am either going to come home with 500$ or 0$.



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Just remind yourself of how you felt when you spent the night in VIP. It'll keep your mood up and will help you make money even when you're having a crappy night.

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