So y'all remember my psycho family?
I'd been all happy lately, works been going shitty, but mom had been decent... she was asking questions about it and responding with an open mind... yay.... relief....
so yesterday she starts in on all sorts of legality, though she ADMITS that she knows nothing but stereotypes, while i've done a lot of research(and have SW) "your gonna get busted for prostitution"(Which is unheard of for my area, which i tried to explain) and i tried to explain, before i said No i'm NOT arguing this with you, this isnt your business because she wouldnt listen and was getting too nasty about it.
So she calls me at 1 AM today. I pick it up, thinking its an emergency, like grandparent having a medical problem or something... but NO! iTs just her callign to once AGAIN threaten to tell my dad, reiterate the poorness of my choices, blah blah blah in horrible judgemental fashion. INcluding nasty jabs at how my therapist and i agree that her action on filing the missing persons report was overreacting and controlling. "everyone I talked to about that LAUGHED that you actually think thats DISFUNCTION!" and generally spewing nastyness at me.
SHe keeps deliberately provoking me, as i'm saying BACK the FUCK OFF mom, until i finally hung up.
She then logs on to my SISTERS IM to message me FURTHER on it, and when i block THAT, she calls again! I didn't pick up though, but i've SERIOUSLY been crying on and off all night trying to figure out what to do.
We went through this, if she tells my dad, i'm disowned, and hte progress we've made lately on having a decent relationship is all down the toilet. and as much as i know i'dbe healthier WITHOUT her in my life, i'd feel terrible for being the brat that not even her parents could love.
OMFG i want to tear my hair out.




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It's getting better as she and I both get older and get used to me being an adult, having my own life, and making my own decisions. But it's definitely a process. And I can't imagine what she would think if she knew I danced. I can see her being completely cool about it, or I can see her calling me up at 3am and begging me to stop. 



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