I'm coming from a little hole in the wall where the MOST i made was $80. The mgmnt doesnt even know my real name, and the girls stole my money last Tuesday b/c i was the only one who made anything... So i have been trying to get my nerve up to go to this really nice club that has champagne rooms, & a business-man clientele. So Thursday, i auditioned, filled out a ton of paperwork and was told to start Friday.
I came to work, and the backdoor that dancers are supposed to go in was locked, so i was trying to put my suitcase back in my car when this man approached me..for some reason he really freaked me out..i froze up and rushed into the car.. in the meantime i dropped my tip out (you have to pay up front, and i only had tip out PLUS ONE DOLLAR to my name) so i couldn't work. I went home in tears and cried all nite. My car pymnt was due yesterday, and i have never felt like such a LOSER. Why is it happening like this to me? Is it just bc i'm so nervous? NOTHING EVER SCARES ME and i am so mad at myself for letting that man scare me! Now i feel like i'm starting over again!![]()




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I just really hope it works out.. i have been SO depressed lately, like i don't want to get out of bed until at least 2pm. I don't work out anymore, and i'm TIRED..like EXHAUSTED all day every day.. and the past few days, i'm starting to forget little chunks of time here and there..it's really scary
But i think the best advice IS " borrow some money from someone for your tip out, go to work, smile and hustle."


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