I need hugs and cuddles.
i is a sad lola bunny today.
I need hugs and cuddles.
i is a sad lola bunny today.





Oh noes Lola! You do not deserve a bad day.
*hugs*





Are you ok? Did something happen?
*Cuddles Lola*![]()
-cuddlesnuggle-
hugs and cuddles!!!! I need a hug bck, having a bit of a rough day too,
xx
I bring you!! And
s.
oh hugs i hope it gets better
I'm having a terribly hard time finding a doctor to help treat me, for a few dumb reasons. And I'm not sure if my insurance will cover an RE, who is really who i need to see. wecannot afford a 300$ a visit doctor out of pocket, b/c in all likely hood I'd be going 2x a week. So I may have to go back to dancing a little bit if that is the case, which I'd hate to have to do, but it looks like I may have no choice.
and Rob and I are so worn down by this. I'm so on edge, and it makes him tense too. plus, i work in the AM, and he works at night, so I feel like I hardly see him.
plus, my chart (a ttc thing) stinks, which means I'm probably not pregnant.
and it seems like everyone i know is pregnant, and so easily.
plus, he's stressed, b/c he is interviewing for a promotion, and there's a lot of pressure, b/c we could really use this raise. (it could be as much as 5-7$ an hour, and 4 at the least). that would be an raise of at least 640$ a month, and up to 1120. it'd be a big difference, we'd be able to buy a house then!!! But it's a much harder job, and he starts school in the fall to complete his bachelors.... so i dunno.... and if he doesn't get the job I'll be so upset, and so will he....
ugh!!!
plus, i started working, and it's my first "real job" I've felt dedicated to. and i love it, but damn, it makes me so tired.
plus, I have a tummy ache.
and even if I wanted to dance, I feel to ugly now. I hate my skin, it looks worse then it ever has. And I'm bigger then I like to be.
all I want to do is curl up and sleep. but then I'll be too tired in the morning.
sigh!





Awww, sweetie. You've been through so much it just breaks my heart. I know how badly you want to be a Mom, and I have complete faith that you will be one day. It has to be so tough to have to wait when you want a child now. You're still in your early twenties, right? Time's on your side, babe. Try and keep your chin up!![]()
yep, I'm 20.
I hope it'll all work out, but I know so many women who it never did work out for.
Oh honey that is a lot!! I'm sorry to hear that all that is going on... but I hope your hubby gets the raise. That would make things easier.
thanks!!! he'll be getting a 2$ raise if he doesn't get this position, almost for sure. But the new position would be way way better.
Good luck for him and good wishes for you!![]()
First of all, hugs and BREATHE!!
I know that you want eveerything rightthisminute, but you have to remember you are only 20!! Life does take time....you know? How many people your age have their own home and family?? Not a lot!!
I really really would give yourself a minute to breathe. Stuff does and WILL get better.....Also, what's an RE for curiosities sake?





RE= Reproductive Endocrinologist
I'm sorry lola i was just about to ask you how you were feeling in chat but then you left![]()
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sorry seraya, i don't like shot much, and he was pretty much all everyone was talking about.
thanks for the hugs.
an RE specializes in hormone study, in vitro, all kinds of stuff. My issues aren't (hopefully) that bad, but he's the best and most knoweledgeable person for me to see. most gyn and ob/gyn don't really know much at all about miscarriage, or hormones or all of that. An RE is just a specialist. Most people refer to them as fertility specialists.




That smilie means nothing, I just thought it was cute. Keep your chin up Lovely Lola. Seding good thoughts your way. Tomorrow, today I am useless.
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I know.... I try. It's easy some days, but today is definately not an easy one. I'm certainly a lot closer to what I want then the average 20 yr old. sometimes I forget.
most of the time I'm more relaxed, and today it's stressing me a lot.
I think i'm going to have some ice cream.I have 2 whole pints of ben and jerries half baked. YUM! I <3 b1g1 sales .
Ugh, me too. Hugs together!![]()
Oh Lola honey![]()
I was just talking about you! Oh I'm sorry honey.
I had a small bowl of ice cream, and vegged out with a friend.
I feel a lot better.
s for everyone.
thanks!



Hey Lola,
My thoughts go out to you--I hope you'll be feeling better soon. I wanted to find some practical way to help and all I could think of was to help with Rob's question--hope some of it will be useful.
My best to you both, and remember that there is always light at the end of these trials.
JK Jim
thanks Jhuka! It definately helps.
I don't usually feel so bad, but sometimes, you just have a horrible day. Rob drew me a nice bath last night, then he held me and made me feel better, and let me cry. I slept so good, I even slept through my alarm! ooops...
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