But I lost weight! Or inches anyways.
I had a photoshoot a week or so ago, and noticed that a dress that was very tight when I bought it now zipped easily.
And now i put on a pair of underwear i avoided wearing because the elastic was tighter than i like across my ass, and it went on normally!
ZOMFG! After years of hating myself, and fighting with my weight, there's finally a change!
Its the most odd thing! I haven't done ANYTHING different with myself, except for making a point of not counting calories. Like I've been eating candy with friends and trying to not stress over portions the way i used to.
But i keep finding more and more of my clothes are loose on me. Its strange. I don't know if i like it, since i can't SEE a difference. I still have a ways to go before I would consider myself skinny, or ideal, and i've long since given up trying to reach that point.
But its crazy!
Like i am of totally mixed feelings on this phenomena.
Just the other day, a salesman at a vintage shop gave me shit about my size, in front of a date. I was SOOOOOOOOOOOO embarassed. Even my date said "well THAT was rude". I know its not just me being crazy and sensitive.
I feel huge, but i know i don't look it, and its weird to think of myself being smaller now, wheni genuinely feel the fattest i've ever felt!




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