i'm tired of looking for health insurance. i can't find any plan that's reasonable and actually covers anything worthwhile. i know i'm in the boat with billions of others and that the story isn't new...
but jesus christ.i'm so sick of it. i have a bunch of things i need to take care of and i can't. sure, i could just pay out of pocket to go to the doctor, but they're going to need to do tests on my skin patches (i have psoriasis), blood work, probably xrays or scans on my knee and hip (been having pain for months and months).. etc. etc. and there's no way i can afford that stuff out of pocket.
all these issues i've been putting off because i just see the endless amount of bills ahead.
i'm tired of looking at plans. none of them seem to work for me. i'm tired of the fact that my asthma meds/psoriasis meds/allergy meds cost retarded amounts of money. i'm tired of not knowing wtf is wrong with my knee or hip or why my skin is suddenly getting much worse.
i feel helpless.
this shouldn't be a fucking luxury.
i bought like one pair of pants and a couple 10 dollar shirts in the last few months (and some shoes and an outfit for work) and i felt guilty as sin every time. if i buy make-up i feel guilty. every single penny i spend that isn't being saved or isn't going toward a bill, i feel guilty.
i'm sick of it.
i still am trying to save for the stuff i mentioned needing for school before (camera/macbook), but every penny saved is a penny not going to doctor's visits, so i keep putting them off longer.
every time i have a good day at work (which isnt often anymore) something breaks down or some new bill randomly hits me. like my car insurance goes up or my boyfriends car breaks down or my dog needs an 800 dollar surgery.
i know a lot of people are dealing with similar situations.
it's just...... goddamn it. it's frustrating.
i'm going to be 29 on the 22nd of this month and i'm still renting and have no credit history. i feel like a loser.
*sigh*
that is all.
and i vow not to make any new threads about this. this is my second this year, and two is two many. i'm not fond of whining. i just needed to vent. now that i have, there's no more point in doing so again for the same reason.



i'm tired of looking for health insurance. i can't find any plan that's reasonable and actually covers anything worthwhile. i know i'm in the boat with billions of others and that the story isn't new...
i'm so sick of it. i have a bunch of things i need to take care of and i can't. sure, i could just pay out of pocket to go to the doctor, but they're going to need to do tests on my skin patches (i have psoriasis), blood work, probably xrays or scans on my knee and hip (been having pain for months and months).. etc. etc. and there's no way i can afford that stuff out of pocket.
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I know EXACTLY how you feel.



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