I'm at my wits end.
Some of you know that I suffered some pretty horrible childhood/teenaged abuse at the hands of my stepdad/some of his friends. I thought I'd gotten past all the dreams and nightmares and flashbacks (at least at night).
When I first moved in with my Husband it was like he was my magical snuggle. If I was sleeping next to him the dreams went away. It was wonderful. Now they're coming back with a vengeance.
I don't know what to do. I'm not getting any sleep. Every time I crash out I end up having a terrible flashback style nightmare. I wake up and get some snuggles and go back to sleep but it just keeps happening. I'm not sleeping, I'm going nuts and I'm so exhausted I feel like I'm going to kill the next person that mildly annoys me.
What do I do? Sleeping pills? I don't know how to deal with is. Dammit, the fucker got to rape me every night for fifteen years I'll be damned if I have to deal with it for another fifteen.
How do I get over this?



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