Well, technically I'm just "taking a break." Probably won't know how I feel for a few weeks, if then. But I've started feeling so negative about dancing, something has really got to change.
This is not a great time in my life to quit dancing, although it could be worse. I have no debt, my boyfriend's tuition is saved through graduation, and my living expenses are blessedly low. On the other hand, I'm still devoting a lot of time to the business I started and not ready to give up on it...so I still need a pay-the-bills job that doesn't demand too much of my time. I'm probably going to waitress at a new club. A friend who works there told me waitresses can make a commission selling bottles, and I think I'd be great at hustling with my clothes on. So I'll give that a whirl.
More than anything, I really don't want to get dragged back into dancing just because I need to the money. I may dance again eventually, but I'm completely serious about needing a break right now. I've really let things get to me lately and gotten so negative, not just about the job but about human beings in general. I can't stand to see any more of people's bad behavior at the moment.
But in a week or two I'll need money or start feeling lazy and I know I'll be really tempted to just strap on my high heels and go...I mean it, though. This is it. For a while.



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