Ok, I'm almost 27 and have certainly done my share of partying in my life. (read: going out and drinking and doing drugs) In fact, by the time I was 20 I'd done enough to last my whole life...I was a wild teenager!
I had a serious live in bf for three years, single for a year, then another bf for almost a year. I've been single again for two months, and honestly, I'm realizing I'd rather be in a relationship.. I like having a guy to come home to, to be normal and domestic together, to eat together.... I'm feeling really codependent because of how much I'm missing being in a relationship!
Anyway, back to the partying, last week I went out 4 nights out of 7, drank all four and did blow two of those nights, which I haven't done in forever.. stayed up til dawn or later, and felt completely shitty and depressed afterwards... Granted, it was Memorial Day weekend, parties here in Brooklyn every night.. But I can't stop beating myself up over it, over how crazy I've been lately... Whenever I am single I get like this... lonely every night I'm not working and obsessed with nightlife.. And I definitely use alcohol as a social lubricant.. Lately I feel like I should maybe just become completely sober but thats such a serious ultimatum to put on ones self.. I'm not sure I have a problem with alcohol its more the compulsion to go out and get wasted all together.. (I do drink while dancing but almost always in moderation because I'm focused on working..)
Can anyone give me any advice or support? Tips on how to deal with being single in a big city yet a whole complete woman without a man.. I know I need to focus on stuff I can do home alone sober or activities with other people that don't involve bars.. Of course I can figure this stuff out on my own, I just really needed to vent and ask for support. (FYI I do have a whole other career besides dancing, I work in freelance photography..)
I really need to become more of a "domestic diva" type...
Thanks for reading, I just needed to vent about this...



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