OK I debated on posting here, but I really have nowhere else to turn and I really don't know how to handle this.
I drank and drank and drank this past weekend and got ...well, stupid. I NEVER get this intoxicated in my adult life and I've never done this stupid of shit.
This all occured between about 3AM - 10AM ... Here's a basic listing:
* I tried repeatedly to get the manager of the bar I'm a regular at to date my friend (read: I essentially begged him. For about 30 minutes. After the bar closed)
* I told my ex's friend how his wife is beautiful, he made a comment about me making out with her....I basically rolled with it for 30 minutes and then continued to tell the rest of the group I'd "hit it" with both of them. Repeatedly.
* I made out with my ex's friend (my ex who broke my heart before going off to war and completely fucked me over, but I'm still completely in love with)
* I pointed out (and obsessed over) 2 of the guys grey hairs and kept asking why they don't just dye it. (they're 23 and 25)
* I spilled beer into my shoes, which were off, while we were all outside and then decided to put my shoes on and announce how squishy they were
* I fell into a pile of cigarette butts
* I just kept on yapping about random things and going on and on and on about them and interrupting people's conversations
* I kept repeating the same questions over and over ("Omg, it's 9AM, you're going to the baseball game today?! REALLY?! OMG DUDE" "Holy crap, you're going to the game in a couple hours?! REALLY?!" ....all high-pitched and obnoxious-like)
* I was asking random people I barely know, but see every weekend, really really personal questions about DUI's, ex-gf's and family things. And when someone would get really uncomfortable, I just kept going on and on about it.
So .... what do I do from this point on? None of these people are my friends .... most of them are my ex's friends and they used to love me. Now they all think I'm obnoxious and out of my mind. And possibly even a lesbian. Do I say anything the next time I see them? i feel like I should acknowledge it, apologize and try to laugh it off....but at the same time I want to pretend it all never happened.
I did talk to the guy I made out with to make sure that we want to try to keep it under wraps, it was nothing, we were both drunk and he'll seriously get his ass kicked BAD if my ex finds out. At the time I talked to him, I only remembered making out with him, I didn't remember all the offensive comments and all that. I also sent a facebook message to one of the other guys (who I called an asshole several times) and I apologized, but at the time I sent the message, I didn't know I went crazy about his grey hair and all that.
Please help me dig myself out of this hole. I've never done anything this stupid and obnoxious before. I feel so stupid and juvenile and idiotic. I'm 27 (28 in a few weeks), this should not have happened.![]()



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