I've not really worked a whole night since Nov.1st this past year for various reasons everything from burnout to not actually needing the money to it just not being worth my time. I hang out at my old club at least twice a week and I know that the majority of girls are not banking anymore but damn it I miss the stage sooo much.![]()
I actually tried to go back to another smaller club back in January where I knew some people at(and the nightime manager wanted me to come work with him) and the GM there was my old manager at another club like 8 years ago and he does not like me cause I wouldn't fuck him and flat out told him so. Regardless when I went in Jan to inquire about coming back he said "We don't need you here. We send to "older girls" to the sister club to "slum it". So anyway,I basically told him thanks but no thanks as I wasn't doing it because I had to but just because I wanted to. Everyone said I should have went above his head and called the owner as I worked in his clubs for years but I'm just not that girl. So anyway,even though I knew it wasn't me,subconsciously I felt old and disgusting and I just started eating and got in to a complete funk. I managed to gain 20 pounds and get completely out of shape. So Yay me!!
Anyway,as of the last month I finally got sick of being a tub of goo and started eating right and working out and people are really noticing. I know I still have a way to go but I'm not giving up. My husband is cool with me working 1 night a week just for the release and exercise and my love of dancing and the big club in town asks me to come back every week.
I don't know what to do-I still have at least a month till I will feel comfortable enough to take off my clothes in front of a crowd but I think I may give it one last go around.
Are there any other stage junkies out there that love it like I do?




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