So... I have until August 18 (when my classes start) to really put my nose to the grindstone and make money to put away towards school. My hours are 8 PM - 4 AM. My boyfriend's hours are 8 AM - 6 PM. We have exactly opposite schedules.
I really need to work 6 days a week until school starts. I need a buttload of money for tuition, books, an emergency fund (I want about 5K in cash savings in case I need to take a weekend off to study for midterms or finals), pay off my credit cards, and pay off/fix my car... that and we're supposed to go to his father's in Mexico for Thanksgiving and his mother's in Conneticut for Christmas so I need money to split travel expenses. In short, I need a lot of money and I am kicking myself for working so little and spending so much.
When school starts, it's not going to be much better. I'll have a lot of classes Monday - Thursday, and work Thursday, Friday, and Saturday.
I often stay home because I love him so much that I want to give him a more "normal" life. It's nice to do couple stuff on weekends like paint a room, go to the gym, run errands, work in the garden, cook, etc. It's nice on weekdays to cook dinner together and spend the evening together. He's at a totally different place in his life. He has his degree, he has a great job with good pay and benefits. I have so far to go and so much work to do before I get there. He's a little older than me, but so much farther along in his life. But I NEED to do all this stuff to get to the same place he is. I know he never would, but I guess I'm afraid he'll leave me for a girl with a more "normal" schedule and set of priorities someday.
I feel so incredibly guilty because I leave him alone at night. How do you guys deal with this?



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