All my life, guys, my biggest fear (I mean truly the biggest obstacle when it comes to day-to-day life) has been performing in front of people. Having a delightful blend of OCD, BDD and anxiety disorder characteristics make it a real struggle for me to even dance in a large group or speak up possibly out of turn.
Over time I've gotten better at making speeches/lectures/presentations for school, since I am more confident of my smarts than I am of my body, but doing anything physical makes me want to oops-I-crapped-my-pants.
HOWEVER. I GRITTED MY TEETH AND AUDITIONED TODAY AND NEVER ONCE STOPPED TO CHICKEN OUT AND I GOT HIRED WITHIN TWO MINUTES. Granted, it's not the pickiest club, whatever that means, but I really like the atmosphere and the housemom was just divine. And the public saw my tits. Also, ass cheeks. When I walked out I felt like I was floating into this dreamland where I am suddenly not a total pansy in aforementioned situations.
Anyway, that's all. After calling my two best friends, of course I had to come to you folks.



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