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    Default im addicted to losing whight and don't think i care

    Im just going to admitted it i am addicted to losing whight nothing makes me happier then looser pants it donst matter if i need to be thinner or not. I am fat phobic (fear of fat on myself not fear of fat ppl) I love to total up my cals for the day and find they are less then a grand i can become obbsessed with food journaling. To me being is thin is power. Yes its a problem i probably need consuling. I don't know why i am this way but havin control over what i am eating makes me feel sain. If anyone can realate post.

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    ... wow... ummm, this sounds like you are headed for an anorexic disaster. You don't think you could be using food to help cover up some of the other problems/stresses in your life?? As someone who's lived with an eating disorder for 10 yrs in various stages (including anorexia, which was NOT pretty and made every other aspect of life virtually impossible), I am URGING you to seek some psychological help and recognize this for the problem it is before it gets any worse.

    Thin is NOT power. Deprivation is NOT a source of pride. You're obviously not happy with other sources of personal accomplishment and satisfaction and need to explore this further... please please please seek some help.

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    it's good you have admitted it. now you need to find help for this, right away. You are breastfeeding, correct? You really need to think of your baby and how you could be harming him by not providing enough nutrition if your on a diet that is below 1,000 calories.
    Not to mention how your harming yourself and potentially hurting yourself for the rest of yoru life.
    please find some help for this.

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    wow, i agree with the above posters, you def sound like you are headed towards anorexia, if you're not already there. the mindset that being thin=having power is definitly a characteristic of anorexia. the counting cals, the food journaling, the fact that you feel like you are in control- yeah, all that.
    i too had gone through that a while ago (started out as just a goal to lose weight, morphed into full blown anorexia, then to bulimia, then back to anorexia, etc.) it's NOT fun, and it's not power. Like colette said, it eventually makes regular life impossible, i didn't go out because i was afraid people would make me eat or it would screw up my plan, plus, think about your baby. you wanna be a strong mama, not a weak one.
    i know it's not something you can just automatically change, but it's good you kinda see it and i suggest you go get some help! please go talk to someone, trust me, suffering with an eating disorder is not fun!

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    I read your post then went to work out and the whole time i was running i couldn't stop thinking about you.

    I have to be honest here and i hope it doesn't come off harsh.

    It seems to me that you are totally trying to fix whats wrong with your life in all the wrong ways. Being sickly thin and buying designer stuff WILL not fix your life, it will not fix your marriage and it WILL NOT make raising 5 kids by yourself any easier.
    What it will do is destroy your body and your bank account and you will still be left with the same problems.

    Religiously counting calories and trying to stay under 1000 calories a day is not only dangerous to your body it is detrimental to your baby if you are still breastfeeding. It is also a huge red flag for an eating disorder.

    I've read your posts and i feel a sort of friendship with you since we were pregnant at the same time, and i have to tell you from a friend you are on a dangerous self destructive path. Coach purses and bangles and being obsessed with weight is a mask to hide the real issues. I beg you to get some help, find someone to talk to that you can be open and honest with.
    You have a lot on your plate and i don't envy your place in this world, from what i see you've been dealt an extremely difficult hand, but its NOT IMPOSSIBLE.

    Please get the help you need.
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    Default Re: im addicted to losing whight and don't think i care

    if you dont care why are you posting about it? i think you secretly do.

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    I went through this. I always had calorie counts running in my head, and I spent everyday seeing how long I could go without eating, I loved it when I'd lose my appetite from being depressed or sick. But I don't feel that need anymore. Mostly because I figured out that it was easier to lose weight once i stopped obsessing about it, and once my body was out of "starvation mode" - which TOTALLY exists. Believe me, I once stopped eating for a month and only lost 4 pounds.
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    Quote Originally Posted by i.breathe.in View Post
    if you dont care why are you posting about it? i think you secretly do.
    Last time I admitted something I was going through to a friend on SW it's because I wanted support and all I got was a catty bitch. Idk if OP is really reaching out hoping someone will be there for her, or if she honestly doesn't care. Hopefully she has a healthy mind and knows her body's limits.

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    Been there. Screwed my metabolism up for LIFE. It isnt healthy..esp when you are breastfeeding and have 5 kids to take care of..you NEED that fuel. Your kids need you. Please rethink and/or get help. What would happen to your kids if you were hospitalized or god-forbid worse?

    It isnt worth it. Trust me. I got sick, fucked up my body and my brain for life and i'm STILL overweight. NOT worth it.

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    I've never been through anything like this but it sounds like you know it's a problem. There are lots of girls here who have struggled with ED, and hopefully they can help you.
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    Default Re: im addicted to losing whight and don't think i care

    I'm not promoting ED's at all but in some way IMO I think being thin is power. I say this because I'm not thin. I just keep gaining more and more weight and I don't have the self control to stop eating. I envy girls that can control their food intake. The ones that can get the motivation to work out everyday. I can't do it. I don't know how many times I have thought about starving myself or becoming bulimic so that I could at least taste and eat my food before I threw up.
    I'm not promoting ED's but I can see her P.O.V.

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    Wow...think about what you just said (I'm a recovered anorexic btw)

    "I love to total up my cals for the day and find they are less then a grand i can become obbsessed with food journaling. To me being is thin is power."

    Where is the power coming from? Is it YOU having power...no...The obsession with food journaling, eating under 1000 calories a day....That has power over YOU.
    That is controlling YOU.

    Please stop before you get any farther into this. When I was at my worst with ana, it was my whole life. All I thought about was food, weight, etc. My hair was falling out and I looked so ugly...Soooo ugly. I mean, like, I weighed 86lbs. Literally.

    I was actually suicidal. The anorexia gets really close to OCD. It dominates everything. And it started with me being like how you are now...
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    Quote Originally Posted by CKXXX View Post
    Been there. Screwed my metabolism up for LIFE. ...

    It isnt worth it. Trust me. I got sick, fucked up my body and my brain for life and i'm STILL overweight. NOT worth it.
    YES YES... my metabolism's shit and I'm 23. My body is so different from what it used to be.... My teeth are shit. When I was anorexic my brain was fucked up and I got into a car accident... (minor, but still). You do NOT want to be there. Please force yourself to eat healthfully, banish the 'thin is power' thoughts, and see someone soon. Did I mention that ulcers REALLY suck?? Burping shit up throughout the day and trying to hold back vomit? Yeah... really sexy. Anorexics often get so sick of it they turn to purging... Please, please, get help.

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    Quote Originally Posted by kaiarose View Post
    I'm not promoting ED's at all but in some way IMO I think being thin is power. I say this because I'm not thin. I just keep gaining more and more weight and I don't have the self control to stop eating. I envy girls that can control their food intake. The ones that can get the motivation to work out everyday. I can't do it. I don't know how many times I have thought about starving myself or becoming bulimic so that I could at least taste and eat my food before I threw up.
    I'm not promoting ED's but I can see her P.O.V.
    Being FIT is power. Being STRONG is power. Being thin does not mean that you're anything but, well... skinny. You could be (and probably are) exhausted, starving, and envious of everyone else around you... and likely very weak. I may still have an ED but I make sure to keep my weight above a certain number, make sure the 'healthy' signs (like getting my period, being of sound mind, having the energy to work out and be responsible for everything I need to take care of, etc) are still there, and make sure that the ED doesn't impair/impede me from school, work, and my relationships. If you're still in the mindset that thin is power, then either you'll hit rock bottom before you figure it out, or you'll get help first. I hate to make it sound so serious, but it's SO true. You're at the point where you can still turn back.

    I wish I had that chance again.

    Also, I second what ibi said about being a 'weak' mom. You don't want that. One of the girls in my partial hospital a few years back said her biggest regret was focusing on her ED instead of her children and missing out on their lives... and at her worst point, not being able to pick up her three year old because she simply didn't have the strength.

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    ^^^

    Right on honey....All so true I wish that I could go back in time, and stop this whole ED disorder.

    By the way it is about control. I think I always had an unhealthy relationship with food, but the summer Iwas 20 my life spun out of control. At that time I also "balooned up" to my highest weight ever....108lbs. I thought that I was fat and disgusting, and that nobody loved me anymore (my boyfriend left me) because I was so huge. BTW, I wore a size 0 at the time. I'm now 120 and would like to get back down to 110, but if I don't well I don't. I'm not willing to go on any sort of diet, so unless my excercise regime kicks my ass in gear, well then.

    Oh, I would also like to add that although I don't work out now, I have to eat about 1600 calories a day to maintain my weight of 120. That's NOT normal. At all. By the way I'm only 26 years old. I am really afraid for what will happen when I get older.
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    Quote Originally Posted by VegasPrincess View Post
    I have to eat about 1600 calories a day to maintain my weight of 120. That's NOT normal. At all. By the way I'm only 16 years old. I am really afraid for what will happen when I get older.
    ... wait, 16? what? do you mean 26?

    i agree with fucking up/slowing down your metabolism to the point of not being able to eat as much as you should just to mAINtAIn. it sucks.

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    Quote Originally Posted by ColetteCalahan View Post
    Being FIT is power. Being STRONG is power. Being thin does not mean that you're anything but, well... skinny.
    That is so true. I think as women we spend far too much time in our lives trying to realize the difference.
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    Quote Originally Posted by ColetteCalahan View Post
    ... wait, 16? what? do you mean 26?

    i agree with fucking up/slowing down your metabolism to the point of not being able to eat as much as you should just to mAINtAIn. it sucks.
    AAAH!! Dramatic typo on my part I'm 26 lol!! my bad, will fix my original post lol!
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    I'm heading in this same path sadly. It's getting worse and E and I are starting to fight over it. It's gotten to the point where I sat in the bathroom today thinking I could just start doing cocaine to help loose weight. I suffered from bulimia and it's back full power very quickly. I encourage you to get help, just as I am trying to encourage myself.

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    Quote Originally Posted by ajbaer View Post
    I'm heading in this same path sadly. It's getting worse and E and I are starting to fight over it. It's gotten to the point where I sat in the bathroom today thinking I could just start doing cocaine to help loose weight..
    You arent the only one who has considered the powder diet. Been there...didnt do it thankfully..but been there

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    I'm not what you call 'addicted' to losing weight, but I have a really big issue when I have to be weighed. It freaks me out because no matter what I come in as, I want to lose 5-10lbs.. I know that's fucked up, but no matter what size I am, I want it to be smaller. Probably why I can't have a scale in my house.

    OP, if you have a scale and you actually use it, throw that shit out. Seriously. It can make a huge difference.

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    What magic power do you think comes with making yourself unhealthy thin??? You will just get weak, lose muscle +tone +curves, slow down yr metabolism, look like a lolipop skull head, grow hair like a wolf in places you won't like, your salvia will have a nasty sick/metalic taste to it, get a strange gross body oder, your teeth and organs will suffer. On top of that every1 around you that loves you will worry, suffer with you, and possibly leave or lose you.
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    Quote Originally Posted by gingerlee View Post

    OP, if you have a scale and you actually use it, throw that shit out. Seriously. It can make a huge difference.
    It really does. I'm better now that hubby threw it out.

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    I'm better without one too. I still jump on the ones at airports and drug stores though.
    in PUBLIC??? You've got more balls then me..I could NEVER!!

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