I got up to do a practice speech today. It was without warning as they were supposed to be tomorrow but since I had mine there she wanted me to do it today. Another girl went up and was giving an awesome speech. (She went today because she wont be at school tomorrow) I guess she wanted me to go so she wouldnt feel alone? I dunno.
A few times the teacher stopped her to speak of things like she was fidgeting and to ask the students if they had any input. She got great reviews, etc which helped her feel more comfortable as she went on. Her confidence got better each time she was stopped because she was given great input from students.
I get up there and the teacher stops me - tells me to take my hands from behind my back and put them to the front. Because I was stopped I lost my place. I then expected her to ask the class for their input but she didnt. So Im thinking I suckAnd I start losing my place again and then start stumbling over my words and my eyes teared up and she told me to breathe. (Hadnt had the chance to add that to my speech or to read it outloud or practice the ad libbing) So, Im expecting here again to ask for input - something to make me feel a little better. Maybe help with MY confidence? Nope. Next thing I just start crying and Im trying not to and really start stumbling and rambling before she FINALLY asks me if Id like to stop.
OMG Im crying just writing about it.
I thought this teacher was nice but I can tell she doesnt like it. I felt it Thurs but pushed it off. Not only did that happen but we were paired up looking over a speech and had to find the main points. She stopped at every single table to ask if they knew where the mains were except my table. Totally skipped us...
I did have one sweet guy come up and tell me my speech was good. I know he said it to make me feel better and that was sweet of him...
I dunno about this class. Im just so upset over it now. I love my history class but I was still upset from this that I couldnt even pay attention. After class my professor asked me if something was wrong because every class Im very attentive and ask a lot of questions, etc.
I just hope this Comm class doesnt make me upset so I dont do well in my History class either. Today is the last day to drop via online and Im seriously debating doing it.
ETA: The reason she knew I had mine done is she had said last week if we bring them in early (today instead of tomorrow) shell look them over and let us know if anything should be changed. She looked over the other girls but when I asked about mine I got a mean look and was then made to stand up and read it. Oh man, I feel like such a failure to want to drop but I really think a teacher hating you doesnt typically end up with a great grade...


And I start losing my place again and then start stumbling over my words and my eyes teared up and she told me to breathe. (Hadnt had the chance to add that to my speech or to read it outloud or practice the ad libbing) So, Im expecting here again to ask for input - something to make me feel a little better. Maybe help with MY confidence? Nope. Next thing I just start crying and Im trying not to and really start stumbling and rambling before she FINALLY asks me if Id like to stop.
I dunno about this class. Im just so upset over it now. I love my history class but I was still upset from this that I couldnt even pay attention. After class my professor asked me if something was wrong because every class Im very attentive and ask a lot of questions, etc.
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about dropping the class... i'd go with your gut.

I can't even stand up and introduce myself when the class begins.. I'm such a wuss. I'm sure you'll get better with practice


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