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    Default Ah, it felt so good, like orgasming loudly in an empty house

    I tell NOBODY that I strip, except my b/f and one of my oldest, coolest girl friends.
    Half the time, he (b/f) doesn't want to hear about it, so I end up feeling emotionally constipated. I WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY JOB, in fact how can you refrain?

    So... one night/morning I came home from work. I was alone. Oh, so liberatingly alone... yet so suffocatingly lonely.

    Before I knew it, I was on Craig's List posting in the "Strictly Platonic women for men section."I went to the guy's section b/c I knew I'd be judged less. I needed to write something purging, I had no plan, just started typing that I was up so late and something like, "I am very confused and lost...on the pinnical of a breakthrough...etc." I left it very short and mysterious. It wasn't to be a rant. (no pics posted, of course)

    10 minutes later, my mailbox was flooded with responses which I mostly read and ignored... except for one that I was strangely drawn to. So, I wrote the guy back and forth a couple times until he asked if he could call me if I needed to chat.

    I NEVER DO THIS, but I felt that it was right.

    He called me, I had planned to make it a very short convo, but we were really getting along (nothing perverted). Then he asked me why I was up so late. I said I had been working. He asked what I did.
    A rush of freedom and anonymity produced a very frank and unhesitated, "I AM A STRIPPER! I DANCE! I GET PRACTICALLY NAKED...FOR $$!!!" (Well, it wasn't that psycho sounding, but that's how intense it felt for me).

    I was in love with myself at that moment. I had never, ever, replied to that question before with complete pride and fearlessness.

    He turned out to be AWESOME, didn't change his behavior toward me, and asked me very intelligent and genuine questions about my job. I never told him where i worked, besides he claimed he knew nothing of SCs; not a big fan. But he asked me EVERY SINGLE QUESTION that I had been dying to answer: all the dynamics, intricacies, psycological components. He asked about my feelings about what I do, who I meet, how it affects me, and I was in confession heaven.

    He made me feel so human and normal, as if I were discussing a job which I had not, for so long, been trying to hide, lie about, while in dread of the judgement and rumors I'd suffer should someone find out about my "secret." I could not have found a person more perfect to converse with. Everything came pouring from me, I was raining, and he listened to all of it.

    We ended up on the phone for over an hour. He asked me for nothing. I hung up with him feeling lighter, smiling, and 100% purified, like the human I deserve to feel like.


    He never called me again. He was my perfect antidote for the sickness that was inside of me that morning. And nothing else.

    And he will never know exactly how much our discourse meant to me.

    j

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    Default Re: Ah, it felt so good, like orgasming loudly in an empty house

    Wow.........that sounds really cool.........I would feel a lot more liberated too

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    Default Re: Ah, it felt so good, like orgasming loudly in an empty house

    That sounds so refreshing! Glad you had that experience.

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    Default Re: Ah, it felt so good, like orgasming loudly in an empty house

    An emotional one-night stand!

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    Default Re: Ah, it felt so good, like orgasming loudly in an empty house

    Quote Originally Posted by Yekhefah View Post
    An emotional one-night stand!
    exactly. Sometimes that's just what you need.

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    That sounds like just what you needed! Good for you

    Animals are my friends, and I don't eat my friends.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Yekhefah View Post
    An emotional one-night stand!
    Yes, and nobody had to kick anyone out in the morning, lol.

    But, I wasn't even trying to be shady about it. In my eyes, it was just 2 people connecting on the phone, platonically, and he helped me.

    So, since I felt like it was innocent and I was unashamed, I told my b/f all about it, for 2 reasons:

    1) Because I don't like hiding things from him and I LOOVE to share interesting and funny stuff that I do or happens to me, and vice versa.

    2) Because I wanted him to wake up and realize that this job is something I really need to be able to speak freely about b/c if I don't, I'll suffer. He needs to listen to me when I talk about it - it's not all venting, a lot of it is funny or crazy stuff which would never happen in a typical job, and since I love him, I want to share with him, understand how I'm affected, laugh about some of the crazy shit and comfort me if I have to cry or vent, or whatever. He is only 1 of 2 people I can be honest with about my job (outside the SC) and you guys, of course. So, I told him exactly what I did: I'm not going to go insane because of HIS insecurities/hang-ups/moodiness, whatever.

    So he tried to get all pissy about it but I said, "OH HELL NO, you will not make me feel like I did something wrong. And most importantly, if your ass were here, and willing to listen to me, knowing that I CAN'T discuss these things as if it weren't taboo, then I wouldn't have had to go to lengths just to unburden my spirit. Because I WILL be driven crazy if I cannot unload the stress that can be sooooo burdening, and I won't let you do that to me... Oh, and so what that he was a fucking guy, it was a phone convo, he HELPED me, so get the fuck over it! Keep not listening to me, and stuff like this will continue, and next time, it might not just be on the PHONE, buddy."

    That shut him up REALLY fast... bahhhhh, at least he's not THAT senseless.
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    Default Re: Ah, it felt so good, like orgasming loudly in an empty house

    ^^ hahaha, good for you! You're absolutely right...if he won't listen to you and gets pissy when you try to talk about work, then what does he expect? You'll find someone else who WILL listen!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Julie, Julie View Post

    So he tried to get all pissy about it but I said, "OH HELL NO, you will not make me feel like I did something wrong.
    Niiiiiice. Absolutely.

    This story is the coolest! Bah, your bf is missing out on SO MUCH, and so much greatness too, what a shame. I couldn't imagine not sharing with mine! He is totally missing out. And with all of the negative stuff too, and just the dynamics, well...it should feel to him like he's an "insider" which he is, so I dunno what his problem is.

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    Default Re: Ah, it felt so good, like orgasming loudly in an empty house

    That sounds so nice ! I haven't danced enough to need this kind of emtional purging, but I can tell how it could become absolutely essential. The job has very unique emotional components to it and it requires a lot of mental energy even when you are not there. I think that's the big thing people don't understand. People don't understand how much mental / emotional energy you give out ( and therefore need to be compensated for ). They think men just give the money because of nudity and that's only scratching the surface.

    I'm in the closet now ( my boyfriend knows I have an interest / have checked out a few clubs / plan to dance a few shifts ect. ) , but like yours, he doesn't seem to eager to talk or hear about it.

    I'm not eager to come out to everyone about dancing and plan to stay here awhile. I don't like the deceit that comes with this. The club I got hired at is clean / very mild ect. and I don't feel bad about anything that goes on there. I just feel bad that my parents and close friends don't know I'm there . But .... I need to work more and make sure this is for me before telling anyone.

    Anyway ...... I just talked way too much on your thread ! I'm glad you found someone to listen to you and found a way to make your boyfriend listen to you!
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    what an amazing story of connecting and healing. Thanks for sharing.

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    Default Re: Ah, it felt so good, like orgasming loudly in an empty house

    Out of curiosity, would you tell us what caught your eye about his particular post?

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    I used to do this to unsuspecting people I was sitting at in the library at my school. I've never gotten and "omg...." reaction everyone just wants to know how it goes. Now it's not interesting to me anymore and annoying to have to explain shit to people, but I know how good it feels to talk about it.

    Yay for you!

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    maybe you can start him out with baby steps in talking about work, first start small- "they changed the brand of water", then add in more detail, to where he knows about the housemom, then maybe he can warm up to hearing about 90% of it. My previous bf wouldn't let me talk about it and it drove me crazy, my current one however gets to hear all about it....From the manager drama, to how i hustled one guy or the other....I keep it PG13 of course, so he doesn't get the whole thing (like the presence of contact) but he gets all the rest
    These days I like to count my money. I like to wash it delicately and iron it. Sometimes I dry it with some bounty to make it all nice and cuddly. I love my money... did I say that out loud?

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    It does sound like your BF has some insecurity issues. He gets pissy when you try to talk about dancing, and he flips when you talk to a guy on the phone, even though it was a random stranger and completely platonic?

    I can't imagine having a BF that would just shut me down if I tried to talk about anything work-related. I mean, I get how even the most trusting/secure guy wouldn't want to hear all about you grinding some customer's cock...but some things are just funny stories or rants that could happen in a lot of jobs (or at least in any regular nightclub, restaurant or bar.) All normal people talk about work to some degree with their SO's--it's a big part of your life, whatever your job is. It would feel very weird and frustrating to not be able to.

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    ^^^

    Yeah, it's not even like I tell him about MY contact b/c, duh, why would he want to hear that?
    O-O-O-O-O-O-O, and do you know what his LINE is about how he feels??????? Get this:

    "I used to feel so special; I met you when you were private, and now you've gone public." (meaning my body, duh).

    I don't really know how to ever respond to that.
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    Quote Originally Posted by LiveFree View Post
    Out of curiosity, would you tell us what caught your eye about his particular post?
    Hmm, it must've been the straight forward vibe that I got from the way that he wrote.
    Lots of responders wrote dumb advice, not even knowing the story, or were like "let's meet for breakfast, baby, it's ok...." (Really thinking: I can get some vulnerable ass!!)

    So, I guess his awesomeness showed in his writing somehow.

    It could've also been pure fate though, right???
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    Oh, I totally know what you mean. I found my boyfriend through CL personals and it was a chore slogging through all of the dumb entries... then suddenly i found one that was eloquent, articulate, to the point and well-written. It was the only one I responded to and we've been together ever since.

    However, I want to agree w/ the other people here... it seems like a shame that if you have a bad night or stressful work related times, you can't discuss it w/ your partner.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Julie, Julie View Post
    ^^^

    Yeah, it's not even like I tell him about MY contact b/c, duh, why would he want to hear that?
    O-O-O-O-O-O-O, and do you know what his LINE is about how he feels??????? Get this:

    "I used to feel so special; I met you when you were private, and now you've gone public." (meaning my body, duh).

    I don't really know how to ever respond to that.
    AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH! !!!!!!!!!!!

    That's how I felt when my boyfriend said dumb crap like that.

    And I was like, cut that @#$ out.

    Boyfriend: insecure, needy.
    You: strong and you know what you want. And you damn well deserve it.
    I'm happy that you were honest and told him about the CL ad, too.

    Isn't that amazing? That when we ask we receive?


    So I too demanded that I was in a relationship with him, and that yeah, I needed to vent. I mean, I listen to his work stories and offer support.
    He said that while he doesn't encourage or like my line of work, he supports ME and that includes listening to war stories. Hence why we're still together.

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