This is how my attempt at sleeping nightly routine goes:
around 12am, turn off lights, try to sleep.
can't sleep.
around 1am, get up, go on computer, read, do something to wait until i'm tired enough to sleep.
between 2-3, put away computer and books, try to sleep
can't sleep.
around 3-4am, go back on computer, get up to get a glass of water, watch a boring movie
between 4-5.....turn off everything and put everything away, try to sleep
lay awake and eventually fall asleep between 4-6am.
Should i just lay in bed from 12 until i fall asleep? because I've tried that and while i do fall asleep around 4am instead of 5 or 6...it's freaking boring and torturous and i have nothing to distract my mind (like books internet) so i just go crazy thinking.
I've tried melatonin- made me dizzy, horrible headaches, nightmares
Valerian- little to no effect
Marijuana- trying it tonight, so far.....just makes my body tired and my brain more active.
Diphenhydramine- knocks me out but i feel like shit the next day and end up just laying in bed and having to take another sleeping pill to go to bed on time
nothing freaking works.
tomorrow, i'm just taking a sleeping pill at 11pm, and hopefully i can wake up by 8 and feel okay.
My hormones are crazy right now, that's definitely causing it
I'm really sad and I stay up crying.
I haven't slept alone in over a year, so I'm having major issues with that.
the only solutions i can think of are taking sleeping pills and finding someone to sleep next to me, but that's not going to happen obvioiusly.
i freaking hate this
any help?



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