i was going to go back to work tomorrow night for my first night back (which would be a little under 2 weeks.) i worked out today and i think i can handle going back to work. i figured it'll be slow, but any money is money after 2 weeks off. i was also going to come a little late, so im not sitting around waiting for customers to get there, and i can leave early if i'm in pain. (i'm doing pretty well during the day but by night time i start to get sore - makes sense obviously)
then i realized its a fight night, too.which typically is NOT good until after the fight is over. and by that time i might want to leave already!
i also could babysit tomorrow night. my mom's best friend needs a babysitter bc their girl cancelled at the last minute. they pay really well for babysitting (like they used to overpay me INSANELY when i regularly babysat) and its really money for nothing bc the kids are old enough that they do their own thing. the 10 year old is autistic and usually likes to be left alone on the computer, playing wii, or watching tv. and the 13 year old girl either i'd hang out with or she'd do her own thing, too. plus, i like hanging out with the boy for free even - he's my absolute favorite person in the entire universe.
making decisions gives me anxiety. bad. there's a knot in my stomach right now. i'm always scared to make the wrong one. i didnt have to worry about it before the babysitting opportunity came up because going to work and coming home with $50 would still have been more money than sitting at home. i'd have to find out if they still need me (which is likely.. my mom would probably end up doing it but my mom asked me if i wanted to before she knew i was planning on going into work) in the morning and then commit to it, so its not a decision i can make last minute or change my mind about.
so.. what should i do? please vote. thank you![]()



which typically is NOT good until after the fight is over. and by that time i might want to leave already!
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And even more regular nights where you'll "get lucky" and make lots of money. Maybe since this babysitting gig just fell into your lap here, the universe is telling you that you need one more day of rest before you go back.
i guess it doesnt matter now.. my mom talked to her this morning and said she would watch the kids, and the lady said no they were going to go out as a family instead. so i guess the decision is made for me. hmph. i woke up this morning all decided that i wasn't going to work.


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