I know theres been a few threads on this subject so sorry for being repetative but I need to vent and I don't want to hog someone elses thread.
Since I starting working 9-5 with my company I feel my sleeping pattern has become well and truley fucked. Its always been bad but now its just ridiculous.
Mon-Fri I get up around 8am and am in bed by about 11pm, then Fri and Sat night I start work between 6-8pm and don't go to bed till 5 am.On Fri and Sat nights I spend the whole night drinking coffee and redbull to keep me awake and by 2am I'm exhausted with still 2 hours of work to go. Then when I get home I'm so buzzed from all the caffeen I need sleeping pills to get me to sleep. I'm usually up by 9am, still exhausted but now that I get up that early during the week by body can't seem to sleep past then no matter how tired I am, sleeping pills or not. Then I do the whole thing again the next night except I'm twice as tired. By Sunday I'm a wreck and too tired to do anything but lay on the couch and order pizza.
Its now 3.30am on Monday morning. Despite the fact that I'm exhausted from working all weekend and I have to get up tomorrow at 8.30am I can't sleep. Now after forcing my body to stay awake till 5am the past 2 nights, it refuses to fall asleep at a regular time. I feel like I'm going crazy. It will now take me the full week to recover from the lack of sleep the last 3 days, only to start the whole mess again on Friday. I literally cannot remember the last time I wasn't tired, I think I've been tired for 6 months.
I know it will all be worth it once I give up dancing and my business is really successful but for now it is a massive uphill struggle. I am not someone that handles a lack of sleep well, I like to have at least 8 hours if not more and if I don't get it for several nights I start to feel like I'm going crazy. I'm feeling so sorry for myself and frustrated with my body for not doing what I want it to do. If I'm so tired why can't I sleep? If I could sleep in at the weekend it wouldn't be so bad but by 9 or 10 at the latest I'm wide awake and rarely get a nap trough the day, its insane. I can't wait until I'm earning enough through the business not to be tied to dancing anymore and I can maybe have some sort of a normal sleeping pattern.





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