Absolutely, yes. People expect everyone they meet to be full of smiles and small talk, and I just can't do that. I've practiced my fake smile in the mirror, but it still doesn't look right. So I'm afraid I come across as being unfriendly or a jerk in person.
I've had total strangers at a store ask me "What's wrong with you? Why aren't you
smiling?". Then I have to stop and think of an appropriate response to such a stupid question. I even steer clear of the employees because they always stop me and ask if they can "help me find anything." I love going to garage sales, but dread being the only one there and getting stuck talking to the owner.
I've posted before about SAD, which makes everyday interactions difficult. I usually do okay in a normal, anonymous crowd, but being packed in with a lot of people or worse yet- with just one other person- is extremely nerve-wracking. I especially hate getting a haircut and having to make conversation, or running into someone I knew from school and having to make up a story about what I'm doing these days.
To be honest, even posting here isn't easy for me. I read the forum for about two years before getting the nerve to post (in a thread about SAD, in fact). At least I can carefully re-read my post 20 times, just to make sure I didn't accidentally say something stupid.

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