I dunno how many of you read my Billy Joel thread, but basically I am in an open relationship and have a FWB that I have become very close with recently. This weekend he has taken me to a historic concert with 2nd row seats, spent upwards of $700 on a hotel room and room service afterwards, and then the following night took me out to a great dinner and drinks.
Before I met my boyfriend, I had a very very very solid idea of how I wanted my life to be. I wanted to be a stay at home mom in an SUV that did things like refinish furniture and shop for antiques and craft things. My boyfriend doesn't believe in the "stay at home mom". He thinks everything should be equal, that I should have to work. That he won't marry me unless I graduate from college- he doesn't understand why that even upsets me! (Yeah, why wouldn't I be angry that my boyfriend would be too ashamed of me to put a ring on my finger if I never finished college?)
I began to think I had changed my opinion of what I wanted. My boyfriend and I have had some issues, and have for the most part grown very apart. Even though we live together, we rarely spend time together unless we're in front of the TV or in bed sleeping. We don't go out, or take trips. We're just boring.
I have done more interesting things in 4 weekends with my friend than I have with my boyfriend in a year and a half. My friend and I also have very similar plans, ideas, and goals for the future. He is just great. He's the bst listener I've ever spoken to... we could honestly just talk for hours about nothing at all.
Everything is so uncertain for me now... but I think that in itself is a sign that I'm not with the right person anymore. I used to be absolutely sure that I should be with my boyfriend- now all I can think about is the FWB. I know this isn't just a short-term obsession, b/c its been like this since Feb.
Whyyyyyyyy can't someone just choose for me?![]()



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