This is just a rant. I've been a stripper for 8 years. I like it. If I never had to get a "normal" job I wouldn't. I have a college degree and probably could get a job that my parents could be proud of. But I just. Don't. Want. To. And this is starting to cause a huge riff between me and my mom. Of course she wants what's best for me. I don't even blame her for what she's saying. She's probably right. I would probably be better off in the long run to get a nice corporate job with benefits.
My life is pretty much a mess right now and all she wants is for me to get it together and be normal. After the collapse of my LTR with the man I thought I would marry, I find myself trapped in a little nothing of a town. Not literally trapped of course, I could leave anytime, but I've formed a deep attachment to my ex's son (who still basically lives with me) and if I left I would be leaving him essentially. It's complicated and there's no sense going into the backstory, but suffice it to say that I'd rather sever my own arm off than leave this child.
Jobs in this area are hard to come by, good jobs even harder. Worse, I would have a 45 min+ commute. So my options are limited. And stripping enables me to do so much of what I want to do right now. Not to mention I truly enjoy it. But I feel as though I'm sacrificing my future. I want a good husband and children of my own. I want a nice home and vacations and a happy family.
My mother is convinced that I'm destroying my chances for any of this by remaining a stripper. Normally I would disagree and tell her to mind her own business. But I'm feeling so vulnerable right now and starting to think that maybe she has a point. After all, my major life decisions thus far have lead to a pretty dismal outcome. I'm heartbroken, stuck in a shitty town, a disappointment to my family, and my future looks pretty bleak.
I don't know what to do. I hate hearing the same thing over and over again. "It's time to grow up and get a real job". "You'll never get anywhere in life as a stripper." "Don't ruin your future. Someday it will be too late for you and you'll regret it." "Don't you want to find a good man?" "You have a college degree and you're wasting it." And on and on and on ad nauseum.
And the worst part is I'm starting to worry that she's right.



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