Between moving across the country and taking a month off...damn I feel like a newbie all over again!Actually worse, because when i really was new I had it easy. I was already bartending at one of the top clubs in my city and was friendly with most of the girls and staff...so it was all familiar and all I had to do was tell the GM I wanted to dance.
To compound my newness now, I'll be without a pole onstage for the first time ever. eeeek! Add that to not knowing anyone, not being at all familiar with any of the clubs and really not knowing this city's "vibe" so to speak...yeah, I'm one scared little newb!![]()
Also add to that I'm about 20 lbs heavier than I'd like to be. Where I came from it wasn't a problem, I worked at one of the main clubs and there were a lot of girls bigger than me. But here I suspect I'll be one of the biggest ones, and that's going to be humiliating. I can just picture all the other girls in the contest being tiny little cute blond Barbies, and my massive pale awkward dancing-to-Rammstein ass sticking out like a sore thumb. Shiiiiiit.
Oh and I get to run around the city looking for cheap costumey bits and pieces tomorrow, as apparently there are themes for this contest. Wish me luck finding and throwing together something cute (and not getting lost in strange new territory!) This could possibly be fun, actually.
Oh well, maybe I'll have a shot at winning something on amateur night--since guys seem to really like actual amateurs, and without a pole I really will look like I have no clue what I'm doing!Because I don't!
(And I got totally spoiled musically at my old club...I highly doubt I'll find a DJ out here that will play me crazy rave-y hardstyle or let me bring in Russian techno. Pity.)
This is all very humbling. I'm new and starting out all over again...I need a pep talk.![]()



Actually worse, because when i really was new I had it easy. I was already bartending at one of the top clubs in my city and was friendly with most of the girls and staff...so it was all familiar and all I had to do was tell the GM I wanted to dance.

Because I don't!

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Sophia_Starina = stripper goddess 
good luck babe!

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