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    Default Today was a mess.

    I guess I need to vent. I'm PMS-ing really bad, so I apologize in advance for rambling and/or not making sense and being hormonal and self-defeating.

    I'm sitting here feeling REALLY bad - not at all like how I was last week when I would get home. I'm usually pumped up when I get home, excited about the money I made, etc. etc.

    Today just started out wrong. Maybe it was due to the lack of sleep last night (had 5 hours, and I am accustomed to 8+), but I just felt "off". I was at the club by 11am, because it's our big buffet day, so it was already getting busy.

    I did feel alot more confident on stage than I did last week, that's for sure - but on the floor, I just had NO mojo. I have no idea what happened to me.

    All my hours of reading Hustle Hut on my days off....(I was off the last 4 days..maybe that is why I lost my spark?). My drive and my ambition to kick ass at this had disappeared. I even did the Kiss Of Death. I sat at the bar with the other bored-looking dancers. I even thought to myself, "WHAT AM I DOING?". But I was just zoned out and content not to speak to anyone. I saw tables of guys, but everyone was feeding their faces, and I didn't feel like approaching while everyone was in the middle of eating.

    Someone randomly bought me a drink. I asked the bartender who it was. He pointed these 2 guys out. I asked for a Coke (no rum), but he put a "tiny" bit in. Whatever. Why does NO ONE understand that I mean it when I say I don't drink??? Jesus Christ. Is a dancer that doesn't drink THAT rare?

    So I sit with these 2 guys that bought the "drink". They are the type I do not care for. Young, good-looking/well-dressed, cocky looking - I know the type before they even open their mouths. And I was right. They were very rude - they asked a lot of questions, and when I'd answer, they say stupid stuff like, "oh yea, that's a good one". (Funny thing is, I was telling the truth). Idiots....I let them know I don't drink, after they offered to get me a shot. So what do they do? Tell the bartender to get me a shot. I look at them, laugh, and say again..."I don't drink". This continues. The bartender brings me 2 different shots at the request of these guys. No idea why this bartender keeps making them. Finally I said, "I am not sure how else to say this - I DON'T DRINK". I pointed out another dancer who was obviously young and drunk already, and told them perhaps she'd like to take shots with them (it was noon!). I got up and walked off. ARGH.



    I did a few laps (no idea why, because I sure as hell didn't feel like approaching anyone) & then went back to zoning out.

    Some guy came up to me, asking me to dance for his friend. I did some dances, but just couldn't get into it like I did last week. I didn't feel friendly or talkative, OR sexy. I couldn't even fake it.

    THEN, I see a guy I know. A friend of my ex's. And then without warning, there IS my EX. Ughhh, are you kidding me? I was completely embarrassed and taken by surprise.

    I hid in the DR for 45 minutes. I contemplating leaving. Then I contemplated staying. Someone who had bought 5 dances from me last week, was in the club, and had waved me over as I was haulin' ass to the DR after the ex-run in. I knew I could go out there and probably make an easy $100 off him. But I just couldn't do it.

    Now, I know what you are all going to say (and I can take it!), but I shouldn't have let that affect me. I know, I know. I need thicker skin. Yes, yes yes. Like I said, this is more venting I guess.

    I ended up leaving at 3pm. I feel defeated. I plan to return tomorrow, to work the 4pm-midnight. But now I'm all freaked out again. Will I feel bad again? Will the ex (or his friends) return? Where the hell did my motivation go?
    I'm all scared that I will return tomorrow with no spark, and do horrible. (Lots of self-defeating talk going on inside my head....PMS perhaps).

    Sorry for the long post - if you made it this far, that's sweet

    Hope everyone's day/night was better than mine.
    Last edited by txchick008; 07-30-2008 at 03:34 PM.
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    Default Re: Today was a mess.

    Hey....everyone has bad or off days. When I get to that time where I'm PMS'ing really bad I'll just start crying for no apparent reason.

    It's bound to happen every now and again, and you have to just let it go. So if you go into work tomorrow, shake it loose, get glammed up, and hustle the hell out of that crowd. Making loads of money is almost always a surefired way to turn a crummy outlook around.

    It will be fine...I promise. Oh, and who cares if your ex or his friends come in? They're usually ex's for a good reason, and it doesn't matter what they might have to say or think about you.
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    Hang in there sweetie, just keep your head up and you'll be back on top in no time. <Hugs> to you!

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    Default Re: Today was a mess.

    Hey txchick, Sorry about your bad day. Sleep well tonight and wake up to a brighter one tomorrow.

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    We all have those days. Prepare for many more but remember that for every shit day, there is an awesome day

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    Default Re: Today was a mess.

    You said it yourself sweetie, you are PMSing really bad. Nothing you say or do will explain why you feel like crap. There is no rhyme or reason to it.

    You can force yourself out of this funk, maybe have some tea, do something to perk yourself back up and get in the mood again.

    Or you can just quit fighting it, admit to yourself that your emotions have taken control and are holding you hostage for a bit and let it go by. Then go gang-busters once this moment passes. You know it wont last.

    A good friend of mine breaks down at work once a month, never fails. Hates the job, hates the guys, hates talking to them, isn't sexy, doesn't care..... Then she shows up to work a few days later and all is well again.

    The shittiest part about our job is that unlike waitressing, secretarial work, taxi driving (well, maybe driving) PMS can really effect how we do it. So, keep y our head up, and if your mood doesn't improve in a few days then maybe see if there is something else going on.


    ETA: A thing I have being doing recently is I make sure I leave the club in a good mood. So, say it's close to the end of my shift, and there's nothing left but the drunken butt darts and guys looking for a To-Go-Girl...I chill, I try to make sure that I leave happy, so I can come back with the same feeling. Or at least not a negative feeling.
    On really bad nights, where it seems the club is full of nothing, I tell myself that if I am going to sit here pissed and sad because of no money, then I might as well have a bit of fun while there. So I'll find my island (the customer I know wont spend money but is at least fun and nice to talk to) or I'll make that the night where I try something on stage I've been wanting to try, whatever. I just don't let myself get bummed out that the night I had hoped isn't happening. Does that make sense?
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    Dang what a crappy night!! Oh well, consider yourself "pre-disastered" at least for a little while. A stripper's work environment is like a box of chocolates, you never know what yer gonna get

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    Default Re: Today was a mess.

    Thank you ladies for the encouraging words. I am up early this morning, and trying to keep my spirits up. I got plenty of sleep last night and hopefully I'll get a little afternoon cat nap today before work (I go in at 4pm).

    I think I need to do a better job of getting myself in the "groove" of things before I hit the floor. Really felt like a (zoned out) deer in headlights yesterday.

    Thanks again! Positive thinking!
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    Default Re: Today was a mess.

    Quote Originally Posted by txchick008 View Post

    I think I need to do a better job of getting myself in the "groove" of things before I hit the floor. Really felt like a (zoned out) deer in headlights yesterday.
    This always happened to me it was annoying . I don't know why it would happen either and it wasn't all the time just once in a while .

    Anyways good luck today! Go make a million!

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    Default Re: Today was a mess.

    Don't worry about it...we all have our days. Just a couple days ago, I was in my zone where I didn't want to be bothered at all...I sat in the corner, playing games on my phone while drinking. I just wasn't into it that day...I could've made more $$$ than I made no doubt about it, but like I said, I was in my zone and too damn comfortable to get out of it.

    It's gonna happen. You're not the only one who has those type of days. Just hang in there.

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    Default Re: Today was a mess.

    Aww.. I'm sorry you had such a bad day, TxChick. And then your ex showing up on top of it... when it rains, it pours, especially in our industry.

    Like everyone else said, we all have those days. And unfortunately, once you're in that mood, it's almost impossible to get yourself out of it. It sounds like you're already feeling better today, though... and like Elusive said... you're going to bank tonight!

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