Ok so before i start on my rant i just want to say that i think ive come to the realization that im a pussy when it comes to traveling alone! As i said in a previous post i live in butt fuck,VA. and there is no work here!!! EVERYWHERE is either seedy and ghetto or picky and not accepting apps from the darker persuasion...THIS SHIT BITES!!!!! im struggling to pay my bills, i mean seriously last month's rent didnt get here til 2 weeks ago. and i had to pull the sugar daddy card. not that it was that big of a deal to him but i like to use him for shopping and dumb shit like that. but whatever! i used to lap dance around here and the contact was heavy grindingpretty much. i stopped doing that because for 1 we have to pay them 50 dollars to work. not really a problem when you make 500, shit even 200. but if you are at work from 12 til 12 and MAYBE MAKE 50 then thats a problem so i started doing the stage thing along with the lapping. it made my tipout go down and i wasnt sitting for hours on end looking dumb and having my ADD kick my ass so i chain smoke...but it became useless. the money was just not there at the lap bar. so i quit. i worked there for 3 years. i got tired of flashbacks to the days when i made 800 dollars and 600. so ive only been doing stage ever since. ive been exclusively been at MD since november. yes it was winter and money was great...at least to me. the most ive ever made on stage here was 300. and i think i did like 4 bookings that night right before christmas. fast forward to the last 2-3 months have been THE WORST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how can i stress that enough?!!! HORRIBLE! UNBEARABLE! TERRIBLE! ATROCIOUS! ...lions and tigers and bears, oh my!
but anyway. ive been working my black ass off in this redneck bar and it used to get the job done. these days not so much. of course i know what its like to leave in the negative. but my rent is fairly cheap. 475 with water incl. i used to make at least 100 to 150 on fridays. now im lucky if i get 30!! 30!!!!!! on a friday!!!! im a great dancer and i carry myself like a lady and all that. people clap but they dont tip or whatever. which is some other bullshit but thats another thread! i have a cute face and a bangin body. people call me the 'SEXY NERD" and thats all fine and dandy but where is the money?!?!?!? can someone please tell me why i come onto this forum as i have for years and lurk and wish that i could make 1000 a night? i cant even compare to what your girls are saying its almost like a "when i grow up" kind of thing. like when i get out of here and grow up and go to a decent club that has champagne rooms for 300 and all that shit you all have. i can only dream of it.
so now back to travel. ive gone down to Elizabeth city,nc to Headlights and they turned me down its an hour away. Drove all the way up to richmond its an hour and a half away to both papermoons and they BOTH turned me down. JB's here turned me down. Mermaids there isnt any money. they want to buy you drinks and i could be there from open to damn near close and make only 40. 12-12. on top of the fact that it was 40 miles away. most of the time i made 10-15. which is how much gas it takes me to get there any way!!!!!!!!!!! Buck's Brand the bartender is a hater and i made money there and she didnt like it so she gave me the run around for a week then fired me. Cheetah's i went for one night and there was a double shooting/attepmted armed robbery right outside the door and one of the poeople that got shot was a bartender!!!! I.Never.Went.Back. i made money off the grown up white crowd.i never make money off black guys usually unless its the older ones. even tho im a fine caribbean princesa. i want to travel to the new Papermoon in Springfieild,VA but i havent gotten any solid reviews on them yet. so i cant do my research the way i want to. i heard that they needed girls but that doesnt mean that they need black girls. i dont want to take the 3 hour drive and it be not worth it. and i WANT IT TO BE WORTH IT SOOOO BBBAAADDD!!! i dont know anyone up there and i might be traveling alone...which i dont really want to do but i dont think i have a choice.
but that is a very very long drive. 3 long hours. what the hell am i supposed to do for that drive. besides listen to my downloaded music? ive driven to and from Philly and to and from Raliegh and Charlotte but not alone. and another thing...my boss told me to have a career change!!!! because i said im not making any money where im at! i said "are you serious? im only 21 and im still a good dancer and you are telling me that i need a career change because theres no money HERE?" what sense does that make? im gonna cut my career short because there is no money in this area when i could go to other places and forget all about this shit? and then i could complain about only making 500 that night instead of only making 30 or less. i havent broke 100 in the past 2 months. and its hurting me something terrible. im getting desperate. im getting very on edge and short with my boyfriend who keeps trying to get me to get a real job. and at the same time im on a club search im on the normal job hunt also. but this situation is just stressing me out!!! whatever i do i want to make money. i just want to pay my bills like everyone else. why has this seemed to have gotten so hard? my bf and i are on thin ice because im not bringing in any money to pay my share of the bills and just our whole money situation is looking bad right now.
anyway i think im done now. you can comment or not i just needed to let it out somewhere.



. i want to travel to the new Papermoon in Springfieild,VA but i havent gotten any solid reviews on them yet. so i cant do my research the way i want to. i heard that they needed girls but that doesnt mean that they need black girls. i dont want to take the 3 hour drive and it be not worth it. and i WANT IT TO BE WORTH IT SOOOO BBBAAADDD!!! i dont know anyone up there and i might be traveling alone...which i dont really want to do but i dont think i have a choice.
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