I've been dating a guy for a year and a half. I'll leave out all of the details, but he's screwed up more times than I should allow. I always coped with the situation by telling myself, 'this will make me a stronger person in the end'. That may be the truth, but right now I'm weaker than I have ever been.
I can't even leave the house during the day without him. We take all of our classes together so things can't be awkward. (At this point, I have to, it's the only way I'll go to class). I can't work, or go out with friends, because I keep thinking how much I suck and how much people won't want to be around me. It's irrational... plus I've become a total submissive. I'll say stuff like 'well, at least I'm being useful' when I'm doing things I really don't want to do... I am such a strong person and always have been, so I'm just really, really beating myself up over this. Which doesn't help.
Regardless of what happens to our relationship, I just want to be whole again, and not reliant on a guy who messes up, because it's a real self-esteem killer.
So my question to you, SWers... how did you recover from losing yourself in a relationship? I don't know where to start.



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