im starting a lot of threads these days lol. sorry.. i just have been doing a lot of thinking.
i do love my day job. i work with autistic kids, for those who don't know. i don't want to just dance. really, i don't. i don't want a blank resume, and even if my paychecks are tiny, it's SOMETHING just in case i'm having a bad week or whatever dancing. also, i love the balance it brings to my life. when i'm just dancing, like right now while the school is on break, i feel kind of 'off' because i don't have a lot of structure. but i feel so much less stressed, too. (i dont want to, and won't, stop dancing, either)
during the school year (which runs for a month in summer too), i work mon, wed, fri day, and mon wed fri sat night. my nights to dance are set in stone, bc i cant dance the night before i have to be at work at 7:45am. i like having as much money as possible so i can save and never have to worry. there isnt much money out there working with kids in the capacity that i want to, so i HAVE to think about my future, financially. i am thinking about taking mon nights off in the future, though, and only dancing 3 nights a week. that isnt negotiable, we're supposed to have 4 nights at my club anyway, so doing 3 is really the minimum.
that doesnt give me much free time, though. i work nonstop 3 days a week, plus another night a week, and i might have 3 days off but theyre short days. i cant go out or anything bc i have to be in bed early.
right now, i'm so much less stressed. that's probably a combination of quitting my old club and not having such a jam packed schedule. i really don't know what to do because i don't want to quit, but it causes me a lot of stress. i mean, for those of you who i "know," how much am i complaining about having to go? the kids are new kids who i don't love nearly as much as our old group.
so.. kind of i don't know what to do. it's important to me to do, because in a way i almost feel like its charity work. i get a lousy $12/hr and it's something that i do because i want to, not because i need to. but i don't really know how to lower my stress levels with a schedule like that.



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. Luckily I do always have Sundays...the one day where I let myself do whatever the hell I want!!
) good luck.

it isnt worth it to run myself ragged.. but i dont really know what to do because i dont want an empty resume. i want to stay there at least a year. (it will be a year anyway but part of that was an internship before i was technically working)

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