i'm so annoyed with myself.
had the worst night last night because i was constantly letting the guys mean remarks and actions get under my skin and hurt my feelings.
i wish i could block them out.
the nights i'm able to do this i make really great money.
i have tried taking 5-htp to put me in a good mood, caffeine drinks to make me hyper and bubbly and even the odd drink to try and lift my spirits a little. i know it's my own fault that i have nights when i'm so sensitive... i wish i could just turn on and off like the other girls.
it's frustrating seeing certain girls do well because they are totally drunk or on drugs. that's a good way to not let the guys get at you... but not something i wanna do.
any advice or tips are appreciated... i hate feeling bad about myself, i'm usually so confident, moreso in real life though.
it was so bad last night, when i woke up today i was STILL upset about it. really, really upset.
please help!



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