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    I'm in for fun ride. I have 4 days until I am entirely homeless and carless. Matt is home cleaning out my car and packing my shit in boxes. I have less than $200 to my name. I dot have the money to get to california. i dont have a ar to get there. All I have is a few boxes ofshit, 3 animals and nowhere t go.I'm freaking the fuck out and just want to give up and see how much damagea bottle of nyquill and abottle of rum will do. He hates me so much and it kills me to feel such hatred comming rom soeone i have loved so much. Hethinks everythng is my fault. I fucked up so badly and I know i did. but im so screwed. I'm freaking out so bad. I know c=vaca was a bad idea, i needed to be at hoem handeling shit but i had to run away for a bit. i couldnt handle the shit at home. i cant handle the way he looks at me. i cant handle watchign my life go down the drain. im so scared to go home and face it. and with such uncretainty. I really have nowhere...i never thought id be in this situation again. i thought my life was stab;le and set up. i'm losing everything. my house, my car, my relationship, my life. 'm so scared and lost. i just wnt to give up. i need to find the pets a good home cause I cant tak care of them if i dont even know whre i can live. but if i findthm a home i have no reazson to keep trying anymore. i think this entire life was amistake. if i believed in reincarnation...i could just try again and start over a new life, cause this one was just a mistake. a big huge 27 year mistake. i hate myself and tat no matter how hard i ty and how good i do its neer good enough andit never gets me anywhere. fuck it all. i dont know what else to do. i'm just empty.

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    Can you dance for the next 4 days to get some cash? You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. Don't think about the past, think about the next few days and how you can overcome these obstacles. So much easier said than done, but you can do it! No matter how you look at it, your life has not been a waste. You are a strong and intelligent woman, you have a purpose and you are important.

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    If he is being that evil with you you do have rights! If you live together even if you aren't on the lease I believe you have squatters rights and he still has to give you thirty days to get out.


    Also PB aren't you in Vegas? If you are girl...the clubs are open 24 hours babe. You can make GREAT money at weird times, esp like 5am til 11 am. I really think you can do it. Bust your ass and work from 8pm-10 am every day for the next four days. I've done it MAAANNNY times for a week or ten days at a crack! You CAN do it!

    And I know it blows but honey I've lived in the Budget Suites before! You can take your animals there (just tell them you only have one)
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    Honestly, that's how you truly know someone's character is how they treat you when you leave them. Be glad you aren't wasting more time with someone so vindictive.

    You may struggle now but if you work hard and learn from this mistake you will be better because of it.

    Maybe take a cab and get yourself to work?

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    OK girl. Stop.

    Yes you are in a scary situation. But when you get through this, you will be stronger and later on down the line, you will marvel on how you got through this.

    This is your opportunity to rebuild your life. Don't get so overwhelmed. You need to put the past behind you, focus on what you have to do and do it. Take it one step at a time and don't get overwhelmed.

    Can you stay with someone in LV temporarily while you work up some funds? Can you go back to the club and dance? I know you don't like doing it, but hey you wouldn't need to do it for long...just long enough to work up some moving funds.

    Be strong. Now is not the time to start feeling sorry for yourself. It's time to focus on your new life , new opportunites, focus on what you have to do and do it, and have faith that it will work out just fine.

    But please do not let youself be dragged down by negativity. Have faith that the right thing happened, that you are not a failure but a success for getting out of a relationship that was not good for you. You should be congratulating yourself, not belittling yourself. Now is the time to do what YOU want and to make things go the way you want.

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    i must have missed something because i dont know why you arent keeping your car.

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    VegasPrincess is right. A woman as shockingly beautiful as you are can waltz into any club in Vegas and get hired on the spot. I know things look bad now, but you CAN'T let this shithead win, and he does win if you hurt yourself.

    You needed a swift kick in the ass to get moving with your dreams. Well, this is it. No more stagnating in that dead-end "relationship," no more stalling out in that town you hate, no more excuses. Now you get up, get out there, and live your life YOUR way. You go hustle your ass off, get out of Vegas and finish nursing school, and I guarantee you that three years from now you're going to thank G-d for all this.

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    as horrible and terrifying as it is right now, it will pass. life can be a bitch sometimes (understatement, i know) but it almost always picks up too. don't do anything silly like harm yourself. it may seem like a wave of shit right now, but chances are, some day you'll look back at it as a ripple.

    i'm fuzzy on the details like how long you were together, if he was supporting you, etc... but depending on those.. you may have legal rights, like vegas said.

    and yeah, look into extended stay hotels. if you can work enough to get some money together, a lot of those places are decent and cost far less than a regular hotel if you pay for the whole week or whatever the minimum is.

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    I know EXACTLY how you feel being there myself at the moment. I'm JUST starting to pull things together...I wish I was closer..I'd totally have you just move in with me until you got on your feet. You are still more then welcome to if you want to come to FL. PM me if you need me babe.

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    Get to a club and work. You can take a Greyhound bus to California and make the rest happen. Other people have.

    You are a sweet person but you need to understand if you can't survive the venom from ex-boy here, you won't be able to survive on your own. Life is hard and people can be selfish.

    You need to become tough. Northern California is very expensive to live in and if you can't force yourself to work you won't be able to live there. Even wealthy people have to budget to live with security there. You would be depriving yourself of a lot of good stuff if you can't scheme a way to get from Point A to Point B.

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    This sort of stuff seems to be going around. Ugh. I haven't fixed my situation any to be able to give any advice *HUGS*
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    Quote Originally Posted by britt244 View Post
    i must have missed something because i dont know why you arent keeping your car.
    The car is in his name, but she has to make the payments on it. It's also recently developed a slight personality disorder involving flames.

    Sweetie, I know how you are feeling, but I think the most recent plan is the best one; there is a closer, more immediate future for you in Vegas than in Cali for all the reasons we both know.

    You were the valedictorian of your nursing school class; you are finally free of the manipulation and disrespect and malice from your hopeless dick of an ex (sorry) that beat down your own self-image to the point where you couldn't even see how fabulously talented, beautiful, enterprising, dedicated and generous you really are.

    You and I both know that you can walk out and get six different modeling gigs right now. In Vegas. I've see this happen myself. And you think he's in a better spot than you are? Are you kidding me?

    I do recognize and appreciate that you are starting over. You've just walked out on seven years with Prince Charming and that alone is terribly difficult. Plus, you are just now launching a new professional life, which by itself can be frightening and lonely and unpredictable and crazy.

    This is going to work out. You will look back on this period as an important transition in your life, but it's one you will not only survive, but will transcend.

    I promise you from the bottom of my heart that this will happen.

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    I echo what TOO said.

    You were the valedictorian of all four classes, which proves you have brains.

    I've seen many of your pix and have some of them saved in a password protected part of my hard drive. "Shockingly beautiful" as Yek said does not even come close to how beautiful you are.

    You have been a model and a dancer, which shows that you have talent.

    Don't let anything beat you down. You are a wonderful person and you are a survivor. You have already come through worse things than this, and you WILL come through this as well.

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    thank you guys, so much. Change freaks me out so bad and I'm terrified and freaking out..but it will be ok. I used to be a very strong and independant girl...I can find her again. Just gotta get over the hump.I can get through anythign with you guys behind me

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    I'm sending you a cyber hug.

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    So my car..this is a funny story. ( As TOO said, it's in the ex's name nd I am supposed to mke payments to it, but with it's impending reposession and expired tas, I dont know if I cn pay it up to keep it)
    Anyway..

    One day my ex went to take his friend to the dctor but his car's bttery was dead. So he took my car nstead. On the way over, the car was sputtering and stallign and the dash lights were flashign on and off, the radio also going on and off. As he pulled into the parking lot, my car ded with a great puff of smoke.

    Turned out...the battery cables were loose, thy wer outputting a ton of ppower but nowhere for the power to g. caused a spark, caused a small fire under the hood, melted the battery terminals and some wires and tubes under the hood.

    Apparetly, the wires and everything were replacd and the car is in runnign condition again. I have yet to see the damage first hand. I'm scared. I fuckignlove that car. It's my baby.

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    ^^Yikes! I'm glad it's fixed. *hug*

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    Quote Originally Posted by Peanut_Butter View Post
    Turned out...the battery cables were loose, thy wer outputting a ton of ppower but nowhere for the power to g. caused a spark, caused a small fire under the hood, melted the battery terminals and some wires and tubes under the hood.

    Apparetly, the wires and everything were replacd and the car is in runnign condition again. I have yet to see the damage first hand. I'm scared. I fuckignlove that car. It's my baby.
    If I were you I'd get to work, have a couple drinks and make the $$$ goal of making the current value of the car in 4-5 days (you can do that in Vegas.)

    Seriously hon, time to look out for Number One.

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    Everyone in this thread has already offered you excellent advice. It is time to move full speed ahead now and find your happiness.



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