as if i don't have enough stress with having to sell my biz, my dad, mom and sis being sick, my middle kids school sucking ass and trying to get him somewhere else or i'll have to homeschool him, bills bills and more f'ing bills...
i found out my dad is drinking again.
WTF! he's hiding it right now, he doesn't know that i know. he knows that i will take away his grandkids, they are his life. pretty much they are the only reason he didn't kill himself a few months ago.
seriously he's gonna end up killing himself accidentally. his body can't handle it. he was an alcoholic all of my childhood (and before). now because he hasn't dealt with his moms death and his illness (severe debilitating rheumatoid arthritis), he's turning back to this.
he's an ASSHOLE when he drinks.
i know he won't do it around my kids, he knows i would rip them away from him so fast his head would spin. so i'm not worried about that.
i'm really worried that this will do him in. i honestly, swear to f'in god don't think i'll have him around much longer. it makes me horribly sad. cause even though all the shit he's put me though all though childhood, i know he loves me with all of his heart. i am the only family that lives up here (other than his wife), so it's gonna really fall on me to lay the smack down/guilt trip/ultimatum on him.
this sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![]()




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