I don't know what to do anymore. I have no energy and no desire to do this job right now, and because of this I have completely lost my hustle. I just don't seem to care whether I make money or not, even when there are guys to offer dances too, albeit not many. There were between three and five guys in my club last night and I made enough to pay house fee and that's it. Considering how much money I made last summer, my husband keeps telling me to just give it a little more time, but it's so hard to keep going in to an empty club! The guys have also started (maybe some were doing this all along) sitting just far enough away from the stage so they dont have to tip but can watch all they want. I'm completely sick of the whole thing and I wish I could get one good money night so I could get back some of my excitement and start feeling good about going to work again. I can't even get a day job to supplement bc my classes are all over the place. Though tbh, I really don't want a day job. This is starting to depress me though and I don't know what to do about it. I'm stuck at the club I'm at and it's actually one of the best in the area so the sad part is that I'm making more than I would be anywhere else.
Anyway, thanks for listening, I have no one to really whine too bc my husband, while he's wonderful and tries, just doesn't get it and still thinks I have an "easy" job.



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and I don't even know how. I had no motivation, desire....it just didn't feel right anymore. I felt depressed just being there. I don't know if I'm capable of being a dancer at this point in my life.

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