Well, I've come to the point where I realize that I have a severe drinking problem. When I started back dancing in September after I lost the majority of my baby weight, I started drinking again. At first, it was just a little, then some more, then some more, and now it's out of control. Not only that, I had starting using blow again.
It finally dawned on my Sunday night when I was leaving a club (not work) drunk that I was in serious trouble. I almost wrecked my car. I could have killed someone, myself, or ended up in jail with a DUI. It's such a blessing that nothing happened, but I know if I don't stop now, it won't be long before something does happen.
I've taken the first part of the week off to detox and think about things, but first sober night back at work is going to be Thursday. I'm scared I won't be able to cope, but I talked to one of my boucer friends about it, and we decided that if I start drinking, I'm going to get sent home. I'm thankful for that because I think it will keep me in check if I'm tempted.
However, I would really appreciate some support from you wonderful ladies. It's so hard to do something sober when you're used to doing it drunk. There have only been maybe 3 days since I've been back that I've worked sober, and that was only because I was so hungover from the night before that even thinking about drinking made me sick. Any wonderful words you may have will help me stay sober. If anyone else is going through this and wants to talk, pm me.
Thanks for listening.



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