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    Default i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    i hate how nobody can understand what i'm going through! i'm so angry!

    i try to talk to my friends about it, and it only pushes them away.
    and then, some friends act like they want to listen and they tell everybody
    "mckenzie is a meth head!"
    oh fuck you.
    you don't know what it's like to have an addiction and now that i'm clean for about twenty three days, i'm happy but i'm dealing with all the backstabbing drama.everyone talking shit.
    and on top of it all the people involved in molesting me, are violent.
    they are also meth users.
    i filed a report, and the police came by
    they stole my beautiful ring my bf gave me!!!!!!!!
    of course clucked it for some drugs.
    they were going to pass me around like a rag doll.
    i'm so glad i was able to get out of there.
    they also kept going back to a place where i used to live, and ask about me.(i moved thank goodness)
    but now i have NO FRIENDS.i can't name one.
    it's funny what drugs do to you.
    but now i know that i didn't have any real friends.
    okay maybe, one. her name is alyssa.
    she has been there through the good and bad, and JESUS!
    i'm so angry that people would call me a crack whore or meth head.
    i'm so angry that people would make me into a joke.
    i was talking to this guy that had been clean of meth for a year, and felt comfortable telling him about my run with it too...he ended up spreading that around.oh. and i was also recently told, "you're supposed to be the amazing mckenzie. you're supposed to be much more wonderful than this."
    FUCK YOU.
    i am a SURVIVIOR.
    i am clean of meth! i stood up for myself against my molestor, TWICE.
    and reported it once! and i never ever let the things that happened to me harden my heart and make me bitter.

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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    Wow girl, it sounds like you have had it rough lately! Are you in a place where you are safe now? I wish you the best!
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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    I'm so sorry that you have to go through this alone. You are very brave and congratulations on staying off the drugs. I wish you all the best of luck in the future.

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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    congrats on the 23 days being sober. that's awesome!

    Do you have any supports in your life, people you can talk to about this stuff? You might want to try a 12 step group. It sounds like you coul use some positive people in your life.

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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    thankyou so much girls,
    i'm sorry i just had to vent and needed a little support
    i feel like i'll be judged if i ask my mom and dad to a meeting
    but i'm going to look for one anyways through my church
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    ^^^ We all need to vent some days.

    Are you staying somewhere safe now though?
    Don't you ever sleep?
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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    yes, i'm at my parent's house.
    i never let any of my meth friends over here!
    thank goodness!
    i moved back in when i decided to quit.
    i'm hoping that they get busted soon but i pray alot for God to protect me.
    i'm pretty sure i'm safe in the house.

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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    First, I hope you are proud of yourself! You probably have an amazing story to share with this world. You are one strong woman.

    Look into seeing a therapist and/or support group. I see one and it helps to talk to someone who will listen and not judge me.

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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    You are a very strong individual and I know what its like to have ppl you care for turn against you . I also know what's like to have the ppl you think would understand because they've been in your situation turn around and act like they're better then you but that's just jelousy and bitterness on their part. I wish you the best and every day sober makes you that much better then them and they know it.

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    You should be so proud of yourself and what you have accomplished! Congrats to you and I wish you the best.

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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    my boyfriend has been clean from meth for almost 3 years now. he started when he was 11, and is now almost 20.

    i am so proud that you have gotten yourself out of it. keep it up! ive heard and seen what it does to people, and that is not a way to live.. you should own the fact that youve been clean. it will help you stay clean, if you are proud of it. so many people dont get out, they never make themselves successful. now you have so much ahead of you. who cares if you dont have friends?? its about YOU right now. when you have found what makes you happy, or what you want to succeed at, you will turn into a positive person and friends will come.

    just remember, what happened before is behind you. dont dwell on it too much. you have everything in your future!

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    Default Re: i was addicted to crystal meth and molested too and my bf is in prison

    You are clearly a strong person. Take it day by day as you are and stay positive. You will be great!!! Good luck.

    And if you ever need to vent about anything it is always welcomed here ^_^





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    No one is perfect, and everyone makes mistakes. The key is what we do when we make mistakes, and do we learn from them.

    You deserve tons of credit for picking yourself up when you were down, and especially having the strength to overcome others trying to keep you down.

    Stay strong, stay safe. Take care.
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    Moxi, Congrats on your recovery! That takes a lot of strength. If it's hard to get out to a meeting, maybe you could try a NA meeting on line. Warmest Wishes,Harlow
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    Good for you! You have a wonderful future to look forward to and I admire and respect your strength. past is the Past.

    You always have here to share your emotions!

    xo~!~

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    Quote Originally Posted by moxilicious View Post
    i hate how nobody can understand what i'm going through! i'm so angry!

    i try to talk to my friends about it, and it only pushes them away.
    and then, some friends act like they want to listen and they tell everybody
    "mckenzie is a meth head!"
    oh fuck you.
    you don't know what it's like to have an addiction
    You haven't posted in this thread in a wile. I hope you are well. Addiction is a terrible thing but you are not alone. Countless thousands are suffering with addiction. You need support from those that know not necessarily your "friends". A 12 step program works give it a try.

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    Yeah you need support from true friends. I have been to a lot of AA and NA and AlAnon meetings and don't care for most of the groups, but if you find a good one it will really, really help!

    It was with my stepfather in treatment and my mom in support (this was in Daytona, which is why the groups were weird, lol). They were really, really active and my mom wound up on the Presidential advisory board or whatever.

    Well so what about that. But it was enough to show me that recovering addicts need support to stay strong enough to stay off the shit.

    It takes a lot of strength to stay away from it, your 'friends' aren't aware of this and/or don't care. Fuck 'em, you have a new life and there will be new (and much better) friends for you.
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    i'm okay i'm going to go to a counselor...
    =]
    thanks you guys for being so understanding.

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    It's just like you were reborn a month ago. It would take anyone more than a month to find new good friends. You are going to need some patience with starting your new life.

    I hope for the best for you.
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    Customers are not entitled to grope, disrespect, or rob strippers. This is their job, not their hobby, and they all need income. Clubs are not just some erotic show for guys to view while drinking.

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    thankyou so much you guys for your encouragement!
    i feel worthless, b/c my family tends to distrust me although i've been sober for more than two months now and haven't spoken to ANY of my druggie friends
    they distrust me..last night i went to see star trek (it was really good!)
    and when i came home around 1230 they were outside yelling at me
    this morning my sister was like being a bitch to me in front of her friends,
    and said "i'm not the one who does drugs"
    and i said "yes you do you pothead"
    and she goes"well you spent all your money on meth you drug addict and you think it's cool to have a drug addict boyfriend in prison!"
    i pulled her hair really hard and we fought,
    later on she tells her friend "she always plays the victim she loves to do that!she was molested by some of her druggie friends and loves to play the victim"
    i'm sorry i'm so depressed?
    and i never bring up my feelings and say "i'm so sad i feel hopeless/worthless/lonely"
    i DON'T
    all i do is keep to myself b/c EVERY time i bring up those feelings they say something along the lines of "well you brought it onto yourself"
    in the meantime, i'm waiting for my driver's license to come in the mail so that i can go audition at body shop in san diego and move out of here

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    Never look back.

    *hug*

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    that hug made me feel better
    =]
    thanks i'm sorry. i am going to stop getting so upset
    over my family i have to accept life and live with it.
    i want to start all over again where nobody knows me as a meth head

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    Some of the strongest people I know have had the hardest struggles in their lives. Trial by fire sucks, but if you come out the other side, you will be forged steel. That didn't sound as corny when I was putting it together in my mind.

    Good luck.

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    holy shit im pretty buzzed right now but i thought i'de log on and respond to this.

    moxilicious, you create your reality. you have the choice of doing the drug and not doing the drug. you have the choice of hanging out with people that molest or not hanging out with them.

    addictions come about from a necessity of finding something familiar and comfortable to you. when everything else in life is awray we tend to go back to the things we are comfortable and familiar with.

    its not addiction to drugs or hurtful people that you are fighting, it is the fear of change you need to battle...or better yet, embrace.

    know this: nothing in life is certain. not the blue sky. not the words you are reading right now. The best you can do is acknowledge that uncertainty and start from the fundamentals of being a human.

    ive just recently started to live by a new creed. live for the now, and do work; focus on what makes you feel good. You may say, "But shooting up" makes me feel good for that moment, and I will ask "Does it really?" When ever you are going to do something that gives you an unsettling feeling...stop. You will know. Knowing bad from good is written into our DNA...and it comes in form of chemical reaction when you emote. Always follow your emotions...they will never betray you.

    Find something that interests you and make it you life purpose...find you life purpose.

    in the mean time...enjoy this video...

    it makes me happy when im down



    gluck

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    i'm glad you're clean. while i havent had to deal with something exactly like this, i have had to walk away from a bunch of lousy people who were no good for me. i literally screamed a big 'fuck you' and havent looked back. i REFUSE any sort of contact. anyone who was cruel to me in the past is completely cut out from my life. and they have tried to worm back in- with no success. i removed EVERYTHING that brought me down- everything! ok, it was a bit lonely at first, but i am actually far more at peace now and i dont mind hibernating in my little place with my plants and books. i dont know if this is right for you, but it did work for me. i made lists of things i wanted to accomplish and with all the new free time i had, since i wasnt around positive energy draining zombies, well, darn, i did it!

    and this song. i LOVE this song!!! i got me through the worst times:
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28KobNbbI2s

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